I let myself go again tonight... stood there on the pads and let everything go quiet and took a deep breath and... let it all go. It was so warm and wet and it flowed and soaked my legs. It was so intense and I got so floaty and sensitive. Im loving this for me.
I got done gaming for the night and ive been holding for 2 hours already, and I was already padded just in case. I bit my lip closed my eyes and just let it go. Im so wet now.
Tonight after work I needed to surrender and relax but I wanted to watch myself. I got the mirror out and leaned it against the bathroom door.... then I got into the shower tub and legs tight together and just let it happen.... seeing it spread out and down my legs I was breathing hard and heavy and faster as I was peeing my pants. Felt so right and I felt that surrender standing up... I let go and I couldn't stop it. Was so warm.
Ive done another full surrender session tonight. I didnt know I was going to pee so much. I fully enjoyed the entire session. It was so warm, so wet. It was so peaceful and so mine to enjoy. This gives my nervous system a nice reset. I feel so good right now.
Tonight, I wanted to surrender and lose control. I got my floor covered and sat down in comfy jeans and laid back flat. I was dancing and wiggling from filling and holding before. I laid there, I closed my eyes and let myself be still. The bladder pressure ever so present. Then after i let out a deep breath and pause... I peed so hard and so fast I couldn't stop it if I wanted. I was right there and I was wetting till it stopped on its own.
Then it slowed... and then stopped ... it was quiet. I was just laying there, wet, quiet and calm. Nothing else mattered. I didnt care. I was alone and it was all clear. Ive peed my pants and its perfectly okay. I have accepted this as me now.