u/sissyswallow68

I would talk to someone on Grindr about hooking up, everything goes well, and then they tell me that they also want to suck my cock. In itself, of course, that's not something inherently bad, but in my mind, I want the men that I suck to not even think about sucking cock.

If I hear that they are versatile or that they also want to suck, it feels like they get less dominant and I lose interest, since I want someone who is sure that he only receives blowjobs, not gives them.

Even if I reject their offer to blow me, and they say "ok, no problem, then you can be the only one who sucks my cock", I kinda lose interest. Even if in our interaction he is fully top, the idea that he wanted to suck my cock turns me off.

Does anyone else feel the same?

Are there any past sissies here, who had a slut phase in which they sucked cock, swallowed cum and got fucked, and then they had to get "sober" to be in a straight relationship?

If so, I am curious: how does pussy compare? Do you enjoy eating your girlfriend's pussy just as much as you enjoyed sucking cock? Do you like her pussy juices just as much as you liked precum and cum? Do you enjoy the smell of pussy just as much as you liked the smell of cock? Do you like fucking just as much as you did getting fucked? How badly do you miss cock?

I someday wish to be in a straight relationship and get married. I am still sexually attracted to women, but the thing is, I never had sex with them, so I have no idea if I even enjoy it. Even though pussy turns me on, maybe it tastes bad, or I just won't find any enjoyment in eating it. On the other hand, I know for a fact that I love pretty much everything about cock, because I've had my fun with multiple cocks.

So whenever I watch a debate on homosexuality or just people talking about it, I hear them say "they can't control it", "you are born gay", "you can't just turn gay".

Meanwhile, from my personal experience, I found this to be false. You know how it went: at first I was only into women, ass, boobs and pussy -> then I started to like watching cum shot videos -> then blowjobs -> then I discovered trans porn and I liked it -> sissy porn -> started to get turned on my cock and cock -> started dreaming about sucking a real cock -> actually sucked a cock and loved it.

What do you think? Do you think that your attraction to men was something inherent in you that you couldn't control and had no choice? Or do you feel like the porn consumption and especially sissy hypnos made you gay? Is being gay something you are born with, or can people be influenced?