People are not gonna be happy with this opinion but I gotta say it
my clinic is always packed and dealers from all over start openly selling what they got, I don't blame the staff fck most are just getting buy on a community employment scheme, but today I was asked did I want any benzos now I should explain my doctors script is effexor , olanzipine , 2mg Xanax a day that's my docs scripts my clinic is methadone odd time sleepers if I can't sleep. but today I had like a half oz of weed on me I was gonna do a deal, and in that second I almost threw aways everything I've worked so hard for these last 6 years, I'm clean and sober from drugs of choice 6 yrs heroin cocaine crack and benzos . since I'm going to the clinic 6 yrs never giving a dirty in all that time should I be given the privilege of just walking straight up and out of the clinic or am I being a fucking stuck up bastard who thinks because he's got his shit together he's suddenly better than everyone else. I really hope you all don't think it's the latter as I'm a good person who goes outta his way to help get addicts in treatment 6 down a lot more to go, sorry for so much typing I just had to get this out before I bottle it up and have to go to a shitty meeting (12 steps never worked for me)