u/slutactivities

I haven't updated in a while, and I'm high and horny, so why not now?! Although I admit, this will be serious more than strictly horny.

I unintentionally found a dom, in a moment that I was sure nothing would come from, due to circumstances. I really care about healing from some past icky experiences I had during denial with past partners/dynamics. I was genuinely terrified to be denied again, especially long-term. The idea and feeling of it thrills me to no end, but the person doing it's bidding can make the act feel truly daunting, at certain points, more than exciting.

Now look, I am admittedly prone to being bratty. I gave this man a hell of a time and even told him I just couldnt submit well enough in my current state. He did not continue to pursue me. He respected my decision. Then showed me random kindness one day, platonically, when I needed it. ..And fuck, it made me unexpectedly wet. I gave in to what I wanted in the moment. He listened to me. He did not push at my (temporary boundaries) or try to persuade me differently. I found myself wanting to submit to him more and more, feeling safe in kink again and wanting to be truly denied again -- most of all.

We've been working on it. I'm not afraid to be denied anymore. He's made me cum so much I can barely form sentence for 30 minutes after. So I do worry I may miss that a bit 😵‍💫 ..But now what I think about most is being a good girl, a good sub, a good little bitch in heat that's dripping and denied. I told him a few nights ago that he can officially control me how he sees fit, no brattiness in that way, no pushback. I feel heard and safe, I trust him. Now I just want to be treated like a cute, dumb little sex slave.

Today is only day 5, and it is *not* my decision anymore, which feels amazing -- but I sure hope daddy keeps me denied for a while. 😇