u/temporalsad

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Hi. I just wanted to share a silly experience and the dumb choice I've been making. So I have used weed for 9 years since I was 14. Yes, I consider myself an addict, but I am making headway towards forming more sobriety in my life. That's not relevant though.

I am one of the few people who developed Cannabis Use Disorder, which led to substance-induced psychotic disorder. Before weed and crack recently I was using meth infrequently and it really did bad for me.

But now when I relapse on weed, it affects me pretty bad. It kind of kills my feelings and only in a blue moon will have the typical euphoric effects. My point here is, that I find crack to be better on my system. Factually, I know it is not-- it's cocaine and baking soda and I'm smoking it. But I have destroyed so much of my life to weed, and it carries a more intense body high that leads to significant cravings and withdrawal without it. Crack on the other hand? While the name itself already puts a crappy vibe out there about the drug, and while it drains my body of necessary chemicals and nutrients moreso than weed, I am probably one of the very few people who with more tolerance now, have less withdrawal + comedown than cannabis.

I genuinely find crack cocaine, hard, or coke yet solid form leaves me with less fallout to handle than weed. The cravings are more intense sure, but the effects on my psychosomatic processes are much less intense. I've used weed daily with only stopping due to being broke up until recently, and so I have a huge tolerance-- I only recently grew my tolerance for hard (crack). And yet I still find it lighter, easier, and less harmful. Weed kept me so far down, into a darkness far beyond myself, but hard is more like my sugar addiction I've had. It also resembles some factors of my nicotine addiction.

I know people are going to criticize me and judge me-- I am a 22 year old who literally had cannabis be the gateway drug to hard drugs. I sound like a clown. But let this post go to show that just because something sounds bad, is named harshly, and carries so much stigma... and people will hear you use it, and even sometimes develop a horribly negative picture of how they think you should see yourself. I do not blame anyone for this, and for saying the basic fact that weed harms you less-- but if we are considering mental health, and psychosomatic health (i.e. your bodily responses to feelings/emotion/chemicals) there's really no complete truth to how you'll handle drugs.

Stigma sucks, judging people (not criticizing constructively) and assuming things about others because they do X activity, be it baking or crack cocaine, is reductive and harmful and does not especially help reducimg harm. Me personally? I do draw the line somewhere in the drug emporium, but that is my own thing. Just be careful everyone-- don't assume one drug is better just because it literally is better on your body-- there is mental health to consider, and with weed I've always been a walking dead. Without it, everything is pain. But that's just me.

Now, let us unleash the gates of judgement and negative criticism-- I know how stupid I sound.

edit: I predicted negative criticism and judgement. Now, look at the replies to this post.

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u/temporalsad — 25 days ago