u/tennislover1111

So I’m not sure where to post this where I will get the least judgement, so I figured I’d start here….
I (29F) have to fantasize about my husband (42M) having sex with other women in order to get aroused and to reach orgasm. It hasn’t always been like this and I’m not sure how to change it. Not sure I want to change it. He has no idea that him telling me stories about his past sexual experiences with other women is usually the only method to put me in the mood. I want him to tell me stories more often because it makes me more attracted to him. Even during sex I fantasize about these women and wish I were them or that I could have sex with them myself.
I want to tell him so badly but I fear it will ruin his perception of me.