u/throwupinabucket

This might turn out long. Anyways.

I grew up somewhat normally. Nothing really to note but I always perked up around sexual subjects and whatever else. I started masturbating when I was pretty young, nothing special. I'd seen it implied in movies and and figured it out. I remember enjoying lots of women on the screen, not really the men, physically. Other than thinking they were cool characters. I remember my mom watching brokeback mountain. When things finally kicked off I happened to be walking by and saw something I didnt understand. My body did though, I started getting an erection. I had seen sex scenes and the same happened but it was always a man and a women. Maybe 2 women, If I was lucky. Since then I was always curious about what other guys had going on. Not in a sexual way, just curious to see.i never saw much. High-school change rooms made me feel awkward and I only snapped a few looks.

When I got older I had the thought that maybe if I looked at gay porn and got an erection, I might be gay. Truthfully, never got one that day. Or the days after that I tried. I forced myself to watch it and masturbate. It was always a chore so I figured I must not be gay.

I was 22 and had just broke up with a girlfriend id had. She was a red head, very busty, very pretty. I was feeling down and was deprived and scrolled by a picture on Google images of a guy with a *huge* cock and a girl kneeling next to it. I was aroused. I kept looking at her and that have me many good nights alone. Then I noticed the guys cock was, not just big, but pretty nice. Clean, hanging there, thick, most of all, long. It was a marvelous sight and soon I imagined her sucking that cock and not mine. This spiraled me into looking at the dick more than her. I'd think of her, or my ex, or whoever i could, sucking me off to no avail. I would think of that cock and bam, a huge load, shooting over my tissue. I thought I must just be conditioned. I quit porn for a year and made it out the hole I was in. I was getting girls, drinking, sleeping around. I was experienced enough and I guess I got bored. I started looking at porn again and had many more fun nights. The new found experience meant I knew exactly what I liked, and what I didnt. I again, stumbled onto a video of a BBC drilling a girl and she was in heaven. I joined her quickly and watched more and more bbc porn. The idea of a big dick was so cool and I loved thinking what I would do if I had a huge dick. What I would do with it. I imagined taking pictures and worshiping myself for it. I didnt know at the time, I was on a fast track to dick worship. Eventually, I tried gay porn again and sure enough I was harder than ever. I was afraid of this feeling at the time.

So down the road, gay porn, men loving sucking cock and taking it hard. I often wondered what it would be like. I wondered a lot. And a lot more. I gave into the idea of pleasuring a man. I surfed grindr for months, checking profiles , chatting, sending a few pics here and there, getting more dick pics than I could remember. It was fun. My dick was raging the whole time and my desire grew day by day, pic by pic. Men told me I had a great ass, they'd love to fill it, lots of sexting and fun. There was a time I felt like a superstar. I finally worked up the courage to give someone my address. I was so horny and scared. I couldn't stop shaking and shivering. My stomach hurt and I felt weak in my knees. The guy came over, I didnt even catch his name. He was tall, like 6'3, 6'4, older, maybe 45-50. He had a strong, stocky build, muscle and fat. Dark hair that had little gray spots. He was clean, normal looking. I sigh'd as I let him in. We walked down to my room and I sat down, expecting a conversation or a hand shake? I had no idea what to do.

Im looking up at this guy who looks confused and just commands me "get on your knees". He said it calmly, coolly, and with just the right amount of menace. I had never been told like that. I felt like I was a woman. I kneeled down almost right away though. My body just took over. "Take my pants off" again, just smooth and strong. I did it. I couldn't help but shake and I could barely get his belt off. I was so scared and turned on and.. free. I felt amazing and wanted. He looked down at me and grabbed my face, leaned down and kissed me. Softly. I finally knew what it felt like to kiss a beard. I felt like such a bitch. This guy is just dominating me and he doesnt even have to try. I was at his mercy, my mind was gone. I finally slipped his pants off and he was already half hard. It was big. Not huge. But big. Maybe 7 inches, thick and hanging there like it was begging me to touch it. I was in shock, this strangers cock is dangling in my face. It kept getting hard and I was so close to it, it came up, getting fully hard and pushed into my chin. My hands just went up and grabbed it. I remember looking at it and playing around with it for a minute, in awe of this guy's cock. It was beautiful. I gripped it with both hands and pulled it to my lips. I paused for a moment, not knowing if I should push the line. I was in awe and opened my mouth. I started sucking it. It was squishier than I thought it would be. No taste, really. I could barely get my mouth around it but I made do. My first blow job. That I was giving. To a stranger. I sucked his cock slow at first, just teasing and sucking. Swirling my tongue around like I saw girls do. I wanted him to desire me. I wanted to pleasure him, please him and make him want to come back. I wanted him to know I wanted him. I started moaning by accident and started really loving the feeling of his cock. I got brave and went up and down his shaft with my tongue, looking him right in the eye as I did. He smiled and said "mmmmm". I felt so accomplished. My slut brain turned on and I was so fucking happy. I felt like such a little bitch and I loved it. I licked his balls and grabbed my head. I was so excited, my sick was starting to get hard and leak. I was more turned onn than I had ever been and it was with a dick in my mouth, making eye contact with a total stranger. He looked at my and smiled again, and just fucked my mouth so hard. I was gagging and spitting, I almost threw up. He didnt make it down very far but I loved him abusing my mouth. He just fucked my mouth as he started to tremble and looked up at yhe ceiling. He was cumming quick and I was proud but a little disappointed, I thought the night was over. I was wrong. He pulled out and came all over my face and in my mouth. I instantly knew what to do and stuck my chin out. He came a huge load all over me. His cum tasted salty but ever so slightly sweet. I sucked his cock right after he finished cumming, making sure I sucked out every drop as he moaned and shook. I smiled, proud of my work and covered in his cum. When I came, my hardon went away. His didnt, I never saw that. He said sternly "get on the bed you little bitch". I was overjoyed when he vocalized my inner thoughts. I felt so happy and proud and without hesitation jumped onto my bed in doggy style. He came over and spread my ass cheeks, hard. I was shocked and pulled away. He grabbed my hips and held me, went straight to lick my asshole. I got shy and my hard on went away. He swirled my hole so good and then licked down my balls and started sucking my dick from the back. It was electricity in my body. I felt amazing. Like the world just fell away. I felt so desired and wanted. I literally begged him to take my ass. I'd never had it done or had the thought what that really meant. I presented my hole and he spat on it and then fumbled in my pants for a minute and pulled out lube. He poured it on, I recoiled from the coldness. He slapped my ass really hard and it hurt a lot. I was uncomfortable now, the slap woke me up. Before I could even register a sound to say now he pushed on my hole with his cock. I shuddered and said "wait wait wait" he slipped in somehow, though. I went from pleasure shock, to pain shock. My body felt like it was going to explode. My tried to pull away but he wouldn't let me. He was much stronger than me, it seemed. He pulled out after sitting in me for a minute, lightly pumping as I whimpered like a little woman. He kissed my neck and rubbed my back while he stretched me. He re entered and it was pain first but then as the head crossed that line, I moaned. Like never before. I moaned like a woman, loving the feeling all of sudden. He moaned as he entered my hole and said "there were go" in a low, manly voice. I was at his mercy again. He had me, dick in my ass and i was loving it. I pushed back on him and he slapped in my ass while I did it. He grabbed my hips and started slowly pumping. Deeper and deeper over a few minutes and I was in heaven. I was moaning and grabbing my sheets. He pumped away and it felt like hours of pure bliss. Seconds slowed down and I felt my whole ego and personality slip away and I was just a slut for him. He pumped and pumped and I moaned louder "oh yes, fuck yes, please give me that huge dick" never thought I would say those words. He leaned forward and put my in a head lock, still inside me. "YES PLEASE, YES HOLD ME DOWN AND FUCK ME HARD PLEASE" I yelled and moaned like a little bitch before he whimpered in my ear "im gonna cum" I revelled in those words. "Please cum inside me. Balls deep please give me your cum"

Those words spurred him forward, he came loudly in my ear, moaning and shaking, pushing everything inside me. It hurt a lot but the pain went away pretty quickly. He held me like that for a few minutes and I felt his dick slip out, now soft. He moaned and kissed my neck throughout. Pumping occasionally. I felt so soft and sweet. Here i was, to my knowledge, a straight man, loving the feeling of cum dripping off my balls and a man, buried inside me.

He just got up and put on his pants and left. We messaged a bit after and for the rest of the day, my ass felt stretched and leaking his cum every once in a while. I still masturbate to that experience. I hope you enjoyed.

DM me if you want more of this guy. We hooked up a few more times after that. DM me any dick pics if you want too, I like em.