u/traveltoaster

I am trying to go to a detox facility asap and I mean today. I’m detoxing from alcohol and 7oh, which my dumbass has been using on top of suboxone. The treatment facility will only let me use the meds I come in with, I guess even after 7oh WD. So basically I have 5 8mg strips of suboxone left, 10 days until I can even get the next script. On top of going into detox I will have less, not more suboxone to detox off of 7oh. And even when I come out 5 days later, I will be detoxed but have suboxone WD to come home to.

What can I do?? What ways can I get suboxone? I need to go to detox so bad I want my life to get back on track but I can’t do that if I have half the supply for regular living- not to mention detox and possible adjustments.

I’ve been in the continuous cycle of clean, relapse, abuse, etc for over 10 years, but I noticed that all of these drugs completely take away and numb the part of me that is a musician and creative and talented. I’m hooked on 7oh and have very few options less as I just can’t control myself. I want to take Suboxone for a while to just stabilize and stop spending everything on it.

But I really really worry about Suboxone satiating me having a double edged effect where: yes, it keeps away cravings and prevents relapse while staying stable- that’s awesome! But would that same effect also compete with my core ME? Is the satiation also part of numbing?

What are all your experiences with this? Not music specifically but creativity and “self” in general?