Will Suboxone continue to dull my creativity and focus like drugs and alcohol currently do?
I’ve been in the continuous cycle of clean, relapse, abuse, etc for over 10 years, but I noticed that all of these drugs completely take away and numb the part of me that is a musician and creative and talented. I’m hooked on 7oh and have very few options less as I just can’t control myself. I want to take Suboxone for a while to just stabilize and stop spending everything on it.
But I really really worry about Suboxone satiating me having a double edged effect where: yes, it keeps away cravings and prevents relapse while staying stable- that’s awesome! But would that same effect also compete with my core ME? Is the satiation also part of numbing?
What are all your experiences with this? Not music specifically but creativity and “self” in general?