I'm 27m, married and I can't stop fantasizing about group sex. Specifically a MMF threesome or gangbang. I don't really know why I have this fantasy. It's not some crazy or taboo thing necessarily, but my wife would never go for it. In fact she doesn't even want to talk about it lol.
I guess it all started the first time I saw a spitroast on the hub. I'm not gay, nor am I bi in the slightest. However, when I've brought the idea up either with my wife or friends, it's immediately seen as gay or disgusting. I've been told you have to be gay to find it attractive. To me I just replay the mental image of a woman taking two dicks at the same time. It doesn't even have to be my wife. The pov from behind, the double cumshot, one dick in each hand. Now add a bunch more and the thought of a gangbang is even more enticing. I wouldn't even have to participate in order to satisfy the fantasy. I think it's the stimulation of it all. The noises, the scene playing out, all of it.
I've had plenty of girlfriends in the past, they all thought the same thing, they immediately shut the idea down, wouldn't even entertain the thought. So the cards just never played out for me. I would never step out of my marriage or do anything to jeopardize it, so I just feel stuck with this, like I'll always wonder what it's like without being able to do it. I don't know who to talk to about it, or how to talk about it. I don't have many kinks (some light voyeuristic/ exhibitionist tendencies) but my wife is also weirded out by that too. Not trying to complain about her necessarily, we have great sex. I just am left feeling like I'm crazy or there's something wrong with me for fantasizing about it.