Want to share my story
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I am a petite virgin guy only weighing 45kg and 5'3 feet tall. I got hooked up to this sissy thing 4-5 year ago by watching porn when I used to watch it I always wanted to feel like the female who is getting fucked and wanted to know how it feels when cock is inside you first I thought I was gay then I got to know about sissy thing, then I started to play with myself I fingered my ass and put things in it and to be honest I don't feel anything inside my ass only feel my hole stretching.When I explored more slowly my fantasy increased even more like now I want to wear tight panties, bra and stockings and get my hole stretched and creampied but I cannot afford all of this. Then I talked to some tops but I am scared to meet idk why I get scared and anxious to meet tops and also I live with my parents and they are strict so how can I get out to meet like I get confused but still sometimes I get urges of cock inside me and from last 2-3 months I've been mastrubating imagining that a guy is fucking me or we are having sex. I like to be dominated but with respect and care and sometimes I feel I want to be treated like a girl during sex even though I am guy but due to my fear and strict parents my sissy life is on and off and sometimes I also feel like this is just my curiosity, I am posting this because I want to share my story.