u/wingsv43

Can you cum? Every human being has the ability to cum. Oh!! You meant do you have my permission to cum? Of course not sweetie!! Just because you are capable of doing something doesn't mean you do it. I mean you are also able to walk naked out of your house and show your wet dripping desperate pussy to the world like the slut you are but you don't do that, do you?? So no you don't have permission to cum.

Oh look at you beg. Haha. I love seeing you beg. Seeing you beg for something you can do right now. You can just touch yourself and rub yourself to orgasms. Can't you?? Hahaha. But you don't. Because you made a choice. To give up control over it. To give up control over something that was freely, truly and completely yours. To surrender your yourself. You begged for this denial. You wanted the rules. You wanted someone else to have the final word. You willingly locked up your free will, your control over yourself and gave away the key. And now you are begging for permission. So pathetic and laughable. Hahahaha. You are begging for something you can still do. And the funniest part isn't that you're begging.The funniest part is that you were the one who asked to become the person who would beg. Because you are still making the choice to stay this way. Every second of your life that you stay wet, desperate, horny and denied, you are choosing to stay that way. You are still choosing to surrender the control. And I love to see you this way.

I love it because every time you follow my rules, my orders and my wishes, you are choosing my pleasure above yours. And it gives me immense pleasure to keep you denied. To keep you a wet, horny, desperate and ever ready mess for me. To tease you till you forget about cumming, you just wish you would be edged. So you beg to be edged. And then to edge you till you are out of your mind, begging, promising me anything and everything only for relief once. Forgetting that you already surrendered everything to me. You don't have anything to bargain with. And I remind how you begged for this. For this very edge is what you were craving only some time ago. I am only giving you what u begged for. Now you are begging for relief. No sweetie, this won't do. You are a good girl. And good girls take what's given to them with gratitude. Thank Me for giving you what you wanted and needed. Good Girl!! Let's do it some more.

I am not allowed to touch my clit in any way or penetrate my pussy(except if it's someone fucking me) without permission. I can earn time to touch my clit by edging without touching my clit or pussy like nipple or anal edges. I get 10 sec for every 3 such edges. I can collect them. Recently I collected 30 edges. I decided to use my 100 seconds. I also wanted to see how long u could hold the edge. But first I prepared my body.

I plugged my ass in the morning only. After 4 hours, I went into the bathroom (I don't love alone) and did further edges. I did 4 nipple edges and 1 anal edge with the plug. Now when I was dripping so much, I decided to use my 100 sec. I dipped my finger in my wetness and then slowly started to rub my clit. But after a few seconds only I was rubbing it fast. At 45 seconds I could feel the edge coming and at 50 I was there. My hands automatically slowed a little but I didn't stop. I continued.

It was such pleasurable torture. The rest of 50 seconds felt like they passed slowly. I controlled my edge so hard bcoz I wanted to use the whole 100 sec. I didn't want to stop before the time ended. It felt so good to edge with my clit after 21 days. To feel the pleasure directly on my clit. But at the same time it was so hard to stay on that edge, to not remove my hand and to not fall over. Finally the time came, n I removed my hands, gripping my thighs instead. Took me a few long breaths to calm down. I had dripped down to my plugged asshole. That night I also got fucked in my pussy by my hubby. I rarely cum from penetration alone so that was easy to control. But it felt so Goooood to feel something inside my pussy.

Another thing about me. I like to beg to hear no a lot. Also different types of touch feel different on my clit. Touching myself feels totally different than humping my clit. I saw a reddit video of humping n I so craved it that I started begging to be allowed to hump. I begged for a whole day. In the end I was allowed to hump the toilet like the dirty slut I am for 3 edges. I was also told that this is a rare privilege.

I humped the toilet all the while imagining all sorts of dirty things. Like being laughed at and humiliated on how I was humping the toilet to feel something on my clit, how I begged for it and I got my first edge. I had to literally hold my ruin inside by folding my legs like we hold the pee. I was twitching all over. For the second I imagined being ordered to repeat how I am a pathetic married slut. And I edged mentally repeating that. And on the third I imagined being told that this show just proves my slutiness and is proof of why I don't deserve to cum. This is why I am a denied slut. The third edge came so fast n quick. My body automatically reacted n stopped. Otherwise I might have orgasmed. I told sir all this and he praised me and reminded me of how it's a rare privilege. I thanked him for it.

Just for clarification, I am not owned by a dom. There are few reddit doms helping me with denial. The dom I mentioned in this is the one who helped me from the start of my this time journey. He's also the one who decided the 100 days goal and the no touch rule. There are others who help me in continuing being a wet horny desperate mess and edge.

Did so many experiments and experiences recently with me being no stimulation of any kind to clit and no pussy play. Some are :

1. edged with toying nipple clamps

2. edged by spanking each clamped nipple

3. started counting my edges and types of edges

4. edged accidentally by pinching my nipple

5. currently sitting with peppermint oil applied on my nipples before clamping them and typing this.

And the most mind fucking one.... Ready?

6. edged with rubbing a random spot 2 inches above my clit while clamped and thinking this is how a desperate wet denied slut edges.

I have realised pleasure for me is all a big mind game. Whether it's denial, orgasms, edges or ruins. How else can I be edged and be able to cum by humping air n listening to a master's voice (unfortunately or fortunately, whatever way u look at it, this type of orgasm doesn't calm down the fire. Rather it pours a little gasoline on it.) So I mindfucked myself to an edge by rubbing two inches above my clit, a spot with no pleasure points with my clamped nipples giving me all the stimulation needed.

Now I wish to experience being denied by a female too. I have been helped in denial by multiple male doms. I have been teased by other girls edges, being able to rub their clits and cumming. And I have cuckquean fantasies as well. So I think it would be a fun experience.

My stats so far :

Total days : 20

No touch days : 13

Total :29

Type:

Clit edge with vibe 15

Clit edge by humping object 5

Pussy penetration edge

Anal edge

Nipple edge 7

No touch only voice edge 1

Other ways 1

Please help me stay denied by reminding me why I need to stay a denied dripping desperate slut. ❤️

I have been wondering for some time if more indian girls are into this kink. Whether it's dom or sub. I have connected with a few Indian guys here but never a girl. If yes, would u like to connect? U can dm if not comfortable commenting. Dom, sub, switch - all are welcome.

Just for clarification, yes I am doing a self denial but I have a few doms helping me with it.

All started when a female sent me a dm telling me she loved the last fiction I posted here. We got into talking about how much she edged reading my stories. If a fit of denial courage (just like liquid courage but it's denial hazing ur mind rather than alcohol), I asked if she would tease me with her edges as I have cuckquean fantasies and I am on no touch and not able edge with my nipple or ass. It has happened but took a lot of time n focus. Long story short she said sure and suggested I pinch, pull and twist my nipples so hard they look like a swollen red clit. I told her I will try.

That was all background info for what came next. I am actively talking to two doms, separately. One of them teases me with texts about scenarios of how he will use and deny me. Getting to know of my cuckquean fantasies, he started teasing me with those scenarios. And when I told him about wanting to try edging with nipples, his texts shifted into that direction too. Meanwhile here I was, pulling, pinching and twisting my nipples. In between I would take a break to reply to him. It got to the point where I was literally dripping to the floor, just from nipple play and his words. In another fit of arousal haze, I texted both doms to keep my clit denied as long as they want, they can do it forever if they want.

The texting dom took it in stride with his scenario and told me of course, that's what fucktoys are for. To be used for the pleasure of others while getting denied any. At this point it was an hour of teasing, playing with nipples and dripping to the floor. And then the second dom replied that of course, he will fulfill my wishes and keep my clit denied forever. He said I don't need it since I have plenty of other pleasure points. It's only function is to throb. And that we will get the wiring between my nipples and clit better. To think of my nipples as my two clit remotes.

All this excites me even more. And so I decide to try to edge with my nipples. And I close my eyes, pull and pinch my nipples, repeating to myself - "these are my two clit remotes". And I pull and pinch them imagining rubbing my clit. Then I pull and shake them while imagining rubbing my clit harder. And I feel myself climbing to the edge and just as I feel I am about to fall off it, I stop. My pussy dripping to the floor, my clit throbbing and my pussy contracting on the emptiness.

When I tell the second dom of this, he tells me that now my clit truly has no purpose. It's become obsolete. And he wants me to progress towards nipple ruin. I beg for mercy and occasional touches to my clit allowed. And he says he will let me have 30 sec of clit touch if I do nipple ruin. I beg again for mercy. And he shows me some and tells me only 10 sec of clit touch if I do three nipple edges. I thank him and promise to keep working towards it.

Was I a good girl?

Yes, I can see that you are wet and horny. But it's not enough. I know that you are denied even to touch your dripping hole. After all it was me who ordered you not to. Are you becoming a dumb little slut too? No? Then why are you telling me what I already know? And now you are apologising. For what are you sorry for? No pet. That's not what you should be apologising for. I understand that your desperate pussy sometimes makes you dumb. Do u know what you should be apologising for? Yes exactly. You should apologise for trying to bargain about your denial with me. After all, you are the one who begged me to take control of it for you. Is this what you call true submission??

Now that's my good girl. Apologising the proper way with your head on the floor and that ass up for any punishment it might deserve. It definitely deserves a spanking as a reminder. But you also deserve some reward. As a reward you can lick my shoes while taking your punishment. Oh I love your heart shaped ass and I love turning it red even more. And I am pretty sure you are dripping even more because I know you love it too. All done. Now that heart is colored red too.

Kneel back up to your position. And now tell me why I keep you denied? Why you don't deserve any orgasm? Why are edges your new orgasms just like your ass is your new pussy? Oh!! You are such a good girl!! Such a great answer. Yes it's because you get more wet, more horny, more excited at the idea of being kept a denied little bitch than the idea of cumming. You don't deserve orgasms because deep down you don't truly want them. You want to be kept as a wet, horny and desperate whore. A toy I use for my own pleasure. And toys don't orgasm.

Now tell me why I don't let u touch that little button of yours? Why I only occasionally use and call your hole a fleshlight or cocksleeve or cockwarmer or cumdump? Why I mostly use it as a lube dispenser? Why I call your ass your pussy? I mean I could let you edge and ruin everyday. But i don't do that. I only do it when I feel like giving you orgasms. So I give u edges instead. As little or as many as I want. Can you tell me why? Yes, it's because I own you and it gives me pleasure to keep you like that and it's my pleasure that matters, not yours. Good Slut. But that's not it. Think past your desperation and tell me why again.

You can't? Poor little bitch. Can't think past your desires and dripping hole. It's because your clit doesn't deserve it. It's a button to give you pleasure and orgasm and we already decided you don't deserve those. So the only time it gets any touch is when I want to make you more desperate with edges. And same with your pussy. Also because it's a hole meant to give both of us pleasure when used and we both get pleasure when I fuck your new pussy. Don't we? The difference is i can cum with it and you don't. Which is what you also want. So we both get what we want in the end.

Oh look at you dripping down to the floor!! You truly are my pathetic denied desperate wet little whore!! Aren't you bitch!?

I have a few reddit doms helping me with my denial. Before I was doing denial for as long as I could but one of my reddit doms suggested to try for 100 days. I agreed. Now I am wondering if I will even wanna stop after 100 days. He teases me with how he makes his other subs edge and ruin while I am not even allowed to touch mine.

Another dom teases me with scenarios of how he will use n tease me. Keeping me wet with his words. Sometimes he gives me instructions too. Like yesterday I did a little wedgie on my own but being a good girl I kept my panties spread on my pussy, the bunching started just after it. Denying myself even that stimulation. It felt so good that I had to stand up bcoz my hips started humping and I couldn't let my pussy rub the bedsheet. I am only allowed to hump the air.

Then came the truly desperate part. He told me to put the corner of a pillar between my ass cheeks and rub up n down. I felt like such a bitch in heat doing that. I got so wet and I so wished it was my pussy. But then I was reminded that this is my new pussy and the other hole is just a lube dispenser. God, I am getting wet just remembering that. It felt so good to hump my ass on the wall. Being a desperate pathetic slut.

Another dom teases me with scenarios of how he and his gf will use me as their sex toy, have me give them pleasure upon pleasure while keeping me denied and dripping.

I am so wet just writing this all down. I wonder how desperate I will be by the time I reach even half way. But I am good denied little bitch so I will probably beg to be denied more and more.

Does anyone know any audios I can listen to while working? I have seen many that are for while edging or lying down. I want something that I can play while working. Maybe denial mantras!? Or something describing my desperation and wetness? I really want to leak in my panties while working but still do the work.

Help please!?

Currently on Day 12 of Denial and on Day 3 of No touch. I'm wet and horny. And my clit is aching for touch. But I'm loving it. I know how desperately horny I can get. I remember rolling around and arching uselessly in my bed last time. I have not even started the journey towards desperation yet.

One of the reddit doms I talk to suggested edging through pussy penetration when I told him I have trouble cumming with only penetration. And he loved the idea of my pussy being used but still being desperate. So I tried edging with it but even though it got me aroused I couldn't edge. As a punishment he took that privilege away. Now i am clearly on no touch to clit and no pussy play until further notice. He said maybe my pathetic pussy will start appreciating penetration more if it's denied that. Since my clit is already on no touch due to similar reasons (to appreciate even the slightest sensation after 3 months of continuous orgasms with vibrations and getting kind of desensitised), he says all this denial is for my own good. I totally agree with him and thanked him for it.

Words are my kripto. The right words just make me drip. One dom has been able to make me edge n cum with words alone but that was on call. Words mixed with my voice kink. Powerful combo. I keep reading the comments and essays in this reddit sub and getting achy n wet. Please help me stay denied and remind me why I should stay denied. Both male and female dominants are welcome.

Linking my original post on restarting my denial journey if u wanna know more about me.Restarting my denial journey