Is life better with opioids for anyone else? (neurodivergent)
I'll preface this by saying I'm diagnosed with ADHD and autism, and I've struggled with my mental health since my teens.
In particular, I used to have crippling anxiety — especially social anxiety.
I found poppy seed tea (opium) in 2021, and I was hooked straight away.
I was/am a functional addict — no one would've known I was an addict unless I told them.
My troubles came when I couldn't get supply, and I went through two brutal withdrawals, which led me to getting on 50mg methadone.
Poppy seed tea is a relatively long-lasting opiate, so it was a seamless transition to methadone.
I prefer methadone; it's a much cleaner feeling to PST.
I tapered off methadone last year, and life kinda sucked, so I went back to PST before getting back on methadone.
Recently, I tapered down to 40mg in an attempt to boost my libido, and once again, it sucked.
I feel much better back at 50mg.
There's a small amount of research, which indicates opioids can help with autism: https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC9011926/ & https://www.hiroshima-u.ac.jp/en/news/89694
Since using opioids, my life has only improved: I have all but overcome social anxiety, I was able to move out of my parents' house, and I had my first long-term relationship.
I also no longer crave other drugs — I used to drink a lot of alcohol.
Overall, I'm a much happier person.
To me, opioids work the way stimulants should and do work for others with ADHD — I feel motivated, energised and can concentrate. Prescribed stimulants made me feel like crap.
Does anyone relate?