I'm losing control and I dont know what to do
I really don't know if this is the right place to vent about this,,or to vent at all? But I don't know who to talk to and i guess a place about drugs would understand drug related drama the most, if its the wrong place just remove my post and iam sorry.
I used to do weaker drugs from time to time when I had them, but started drinking daily as a teen for some years, tried to quit again and again until I somehow managed to stay sober and clean for a whole year. start of this year I relapsed and somehow endet up completely loosing my grip and took every drug I got my hands on, landed in the ER 1-2 months ago and got SA due to drugs. This month has been the worst I smoked meth for the first time and later had to get carried to a bus because i was out of it due to benzos and morphine (which i also took but thats more common for me and nothing new), bus driver woke me up after nearly an hour and I nearly lost all of my friends. I never thought my life would turn out this way and it seems to get worse day by day, I dont know how to stop this. I bought some pregabalin in hopes I'll just stay at home and get high off them instead of going out and showing everyone what a wreck I am currently, but theyre not a long time solution. I'm in my 20s and I'm close to losing my parents because they cant mentally handle it anymore, losing my friends for the same reason and ending up on the streets. what is happening