im so tired of being completely controlled by my orgasms. every single time I touch myself I tell myself “just edge, don’t cum,” but I always fail. I get right there, dripping and desperate, and then I cum anyway. its way worse when I’m high i lose all control and end up having long, sloppy, multiple orgasm sessions that leave me feeling disappointed in myself afterwards.
I don’t want this anymore. I want to actually learn denial. I want the ache. I want the discipline. I want to feel owned and in control instead of being a slave to my own pussy.
lowkey just posting this because I’m admitting I have zero self-control at all and I need help. Im edging and I needed to get it out and post this.
thanks for reading my desperate little confession! I want to be better 💕