Life Upside Down
Ramai tak kat sini yang ada dual side that totally upside down?
On the one side, you are perfectly curated. Introvert, normal, or maybe someone who looks religious. But your other side is the exact polar opposite. Purely lustful. Sisi yang dipenuhi dengan high libido yang kalau boleh, setiap hari kau nak lepaskan. I’m not talking about selling services, but a hidden space where you let your raw desires breathe.
How do you cope with this daily friction? Korang feeling guilt tak? Macam mana korang deal dengan rasa guilt dengan Tuhan, dengan imej sisi satu lagi?
Ada tak yang pernah terkantoi dengan your closest people irl? If you did, what did you do?
Because I’m living it right now.
In real life, aku memang jenis tak banyak cakap. Dekat tempat kerja pun, aku jarang sangat borak dengan perempuan, cakap bila ada urusan kerja je. People see me as safe and quiet.
But when midnight hits, I drown in this subreddit. Membaca luwahan redditors, melayan nafsu yang aku simpan ketat sorang-sorang.
Until I found out my niqabi colleague has the exact same darkside.
She became the only person who knows my hidden side, and I know hers. Now, kitorang dah buat hal masing-masing, but we still keep each other's secrets tightly locked.
I know she lurks in this sub too.
Hi, N.