First time reaching out
I’m a 18 year old male. I honestly don’t know what to say or what I’m doing, I guess I just want someone to relate to about this. I’ve been into scat for some years now, discovered it on xvideos. I saw a video as a young teenager and got curious since I already liked seeing weird and bizarre things. I was weirded out at first, then I kept rewatching it and got turned on and it just went downhill from there. I’ve masturbated with my own a handful of times (hand, gloved hand, sex doll), I even had sex with a girl and she shitted on my dick during anal a bit. I guess I liked it, I masturbated to the video a couple times. But When I went home, I didn’t wash it off, I wiped my finger right on my tip and licked her shit off my finger. I don’t know how I felt after that. I’ve done things I’m not proud of, and i honestly wish I just never discovered porn at all. One of my fantasies is having anal sex and pounding the shit out of them (literally). It turns me on to the point where it feels like I fucking love it, then post nut clarity hits and I’m sure you know how that goes. I think eating shit from a pretty girl is hot, I doubt I’d actually do it, but I probably would if I was turned on enough, I’d do anything if I was turned on enough. My scat fetish burned a hole so deep into me that I wish I could just redo my entire life and just avoid porn in general. I have some other fetishes and kinks, but they aren’t as taboo as scat, and I think scat is one of the ones that turn me on the most. I don’t shame anyone who likes this kind of stuff, because trust me, I fucking love it when I’m turned on. I want to experience some things I’ve seen online in person but I don’t know if I ever will. If I come across a girl who’s into it or something, i’d do literally any and everything with her. In conclusion, i’d honestly choose to never have come across this fetish all together, but it is what it is, can’t really change it, so I’ll just deal with it for the rest of my life. If I find someone who’s into it, great. If I don’t, oh well. If you read this, thank you, I’d love to hear what you have to say, answer any questions, literally anything to have some type of relation with someone I can relate with