20M Completely Obsessed With My Married Neighbor — Am I Delusional or Is There Something There?
I'm a 20-year-old guy, and I've been dealing with a fantasy that has slowly become an obsession.
There's a woman in my apartment building whom I've known since childhood. When I was a kid, she was already older and in college. Now she's married and has three daughters, while I'm in college myself.
The thing is, over the last few years I've become extremely attracted to her. She's not the typical "model" type, but she's exactly my type. She's fair, curvy, confident, and has the kind of mature woman vibe that drives me crazy. After three pregnancies she's put on some weight, but lately she's been working on herself and trying to get fitter.
Her husband works abroad, so she's mostly here with the kids. She trusts me a lot and comes to me whenever she needs help with technology, apps, phones, or random problems. Her children are very comfortable around me too.
What messes with my head is how comfortable she is around me. She often stands very close while talking. Sometimes she'll show me her gym progress, ask for my opinion, and generally seems much more physically comfortable around me than most women are. Whenever we're talking, I find myself becoming very aware of her presence.
Maybe it's all in my head because I've always had a thing for older women, especially married women. Maybe I'm just seeing what I want to see. But I can't stop wondering if there's even the slightest chance she's aware of the attraction.
Part of me thinks she's simply treating me like a younger brother or a trusted family friend. Another part of me keeps asking whether I'm completely misreading the situation.
Guys who have been attracted to an older married woman, especially someone you've known for years, how did you deal with it? Am I just letting a fantasy take over my thinking, or does this sound like something worth paying attention to?