My Road Back - Part 3
This is a series. Please feel free to read the other parts of this story. This is a fictional story. Names and places are not real. Positive comments are always appreciated. Please enjoy the story.
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Dennis had one more day on site and then a day of travel and he would be home. We spent some of our texting trying to work out our schedules so we could see one another. It just seemed that if I could rearrange something he could not, and if he could rearrange something I could not. We both had our lives that we had to live but we wanted to also see each other.
“Jen, I hope you don’t mind I saved that picture?”
Oh my, I should have figured he would. I was too afraid of my kid picking up my phone and seeing anything Dennis and I shared so images were deleted. Texts were deleted. I kept everything in my head. “Dennis please hide that picture. I don’t need anybody seeing.“
”Don’t worry, my phone never leaves my side.” I was at least a bit comforted that he kept a good eye on his phone. “I keep looking at how adorable you look.” I blushed reading his words. I really had no come back. I sent back a smiling emoji. “I know we are acting like kids, but I do really find you attractive.” It has been a long time since anybody had told me that. I still had no clue what to say.
“You are too kind. It is you that is the handsome one.” There, I turned it back on him. It was then that he sent me a picture of himself topless. “That is not fair!”
”Why not?”
”Because I cannot do that.”
”But you could ;)”
”You got what you got!”
”Fair enough. Do you not want me to send you images?”
”Not what I said.”
”So you want me to send you images?”
”Not what I said either.” There was no right or wrong answer. I did not want to say yes, but I was also not about to say no. I wanted them, but having them just made me want him more.
I wanted to make sure that the want was not lust. I wanted to want him for the right reasons. But I will admit, if I just had him one time. Just once inside my pussy. If he could just stretch me back out and use me. Oh God, I swear, I would be a good girl for another ten years.
Dennis and I had playful texts and also some that were a bit more serious about getting to know one another. We had some common ground on music, but movies we would have to work to find a common ground. I was a hard pass on horror and he was not too willing to insider romance. We both knew that the church had a place in our lives, but also agreed that there was room for boundaries. I mean, I am an adult, I was married, I have a kid did the Law of Chastity really need to apply if it was a strong committed relationship?
The two of us kept trying to find a time when we could get back together in person. Dennis by no means made it easy with his selfies. He even sent one of him in the shower. He hid just enough, but enough was there that I had to have a good self-love session that night.
Every time I masturbated it was his penis not my fingers penetrating my warm wet vagina. Where I once would start with one I now started with two and usually ended with at least three if not a fourth finger inside of me. I had seen the outline in the first pic Dennis had sent. He was way larger looking in that pic that my ex. I know pics can be deceiving but damn his penis looked like it was a small arm.
I called one of the ladies from the lunch group to talk to her about all of this. “Look Jen, you will be amazed at what your body will do. Just take it slow, use some extra lube, and go for it when the time was right.”
”but…”
”There is no but girl, you just need to do it. It’s been way to long. Either you do it or get yourself to a nunnery. Text me Saturday, we can go to the sex store and I’ll help you pick out a couple of things.”
I did just that. I texted my friend Saturday morning. Dennis and I were still trying to find a time. Currently it looked it would be the following Saturday at his place. He was hosting all the youth from his ward for an end of summer celebration. My friend finally texted back as Dennis and I had settled on the date for next weekend. She agreed to meet me at a place that was outside of the boundaries for my ward, and I was feeling positive I would not actually see anybody I knew there.
My friend met me at the McDonald’s across town. I jumped into her navy blue minivan and we headed to the store. The two of us talked. Well mainly I talked. I was all over the place talking about Dennis. “Look girl, it is obvious, you like him. You made your play, and now he is making his play. You have to be careful on the next moves or it could just be a wam bam thank you Mam affair.“ I really did not want that. I wanted his touch. I had not been touched in a very long time. The want was more than a want I felt like it was a need.
My friend pulled into the parking lot. I reached for her arm, and told her not to pull all the way up. I looked at the van in front of us and I swore to my friend that I knew that van. The rear window had that family sticker with parents, and six kids, and a dog. My friend looked at me like a was crazy. “She probably just loves sex and being pregnant.”
Maybe that was the case I enjoyed carrying my child. Being a nothing has given me a different sense and feeling of being whole as a person. I sunk down in my seat a bit as I watched two women get closer to the van. It was the Relief Society president and the bishop’s wife. Holy cow, here was two respected women from my ward walking out of a sex shop together. Damn. I wonder what would is going on behind the doors that I don‘t know about? Actually I don’t care, or did I. Hahaha, I think that is the problem sometimes with us church ladies we want to know what we don’t know and that sure is a whole other set of problems.
The two of us sat, and watched as the pulled away I waited till van was out of sight. My friend just sat with her phone texting the other lunch girls. They had a good laugh at my silliness.
The two of us walked in and my friend went over to the counter. She chatted with the lady behind the counter while I stood back a bit. I felt a bit odd just standing so I started to take a slow walk. My eyes had no idea at all the things that were there. I found a wall that was full of different shape, sizes, and I don’t even know dildos. There was one that had to be the size of a small log. I sure hope that was a gag gift. Another was even in the shape of a large farm animal, what in the world? There was a space alien, tentacles and more. I had to move on or I was going to be able to think.
The next room had a lot of leather and metal in it. “I see you found the room that your friends bought stuff from.”
”How do you know?”
”The lady at the counter. I graduated with her. Her older brother took my virginity when I was 17, he was 23. This is all BDSM gear. Some of it is pretty good. Not the gag gift kind of things like these cheap handuffs. Let’s just say your friends bought the good stuff. But lets go back to the previous room.“
Holy cow. I wonder what they did get. There was paddles, whips, floggers - I only knew because my friend later walked me back through and showed off some of the items before we left. There was a bag a person could lay in and they vacuumed it down on the person. A wand that would give electrical shocks. A section of medical items. She picked up these stainless steel tubes. My friend said the were sounds. She winked at me and told me they were for Dennis. All I could do was shake my head. My friend then reached over and picked up something and tossed it in the cart she had. I looked down. She had tossed a speculum into the cart. “Its for my sister. We get crazy shit for one another. She will open it, look at me, shake her head, not want to take it out, then her crazy friend will egg her on, and she will take it out and get beat red. I love it.“
When we had gone back into the other room my friend helped my pick out a dildo. It had decent girth. It was not at all like some of the crazy ones there. She picked out a set of anal training toys for me. Told me I need to get a decent magic wand vibrator, and lots of lube. We eventually made our way back up to the counter.
My friend introduced me to the lady behind the counter. “I am so sorry you know this person,” she said. ”I have known her a long time and she always manages to find a way to make some trouble.” She kept talking as she scanned each item. Before she was done she looked at me and told me that she would give me the friend and family discount. I was very thankful as the bill was cut by a significant amount.
While my friend drove us back she walked through each of the toys I got. She told me that I should start with one of the smaller trainers when I was at home. “My friends love my ass. Don’t listen to some of those prudes out there. I good cock in your ass will do you wonders trust me,” she said. All I could do was smile.
I had never had my ass played with. There was some talk in high school and the first year of college about how some girls would take it there all the time because they were saving their vagina for marriage. I just saved myself. Was it worth it? I guess. But he was not at all a lover so maybe I should have given up my ass back then. At least then I would have had some action then…not like I have been getting any now.
Just before I was about to get out of my friend’s minivan Dennis sent a pic. He was outside on the farm working on a fence. He was soaked from working so hard. His shirt was sticking to his chest. “Damn girl. I would totally hit that. You need to make sure you put your name on that transaction before somebody else does.” We both had a good laugh. I thanked her for all the help and laughs we had shared. She gave me a big hug and a nice little kiss. “Like I said, go get him!”
When I got back to my car I gave Dennis a call. He actually answered. He was beyond excited to have to take a break. I shared with him that I had shared his last picture with a friend. I even told him what she said. “So, when are you going to sign,” he said. I laughed and blushed while I was trying to keep focused on the drive.
I talked right past his comment. If he had been here he could have probably cooked a steak on my face. If I only knew how to really answer. I wanted to say I was ready to sign but I did not want to seem desperate. I really had no clue how this game is played anymore.
”Dennis you know you are just too damn hot.“
“You are just saying it.”
”No really you are amazing.”
”Well thank you.”
”I wish we did not have to wait till next weekend.”
”I know, but it is what it is.”
“I know, it sucks still.“
We continued our flirty conversation like this till I got home. My child was still with his dad so I took my new toys to my bedroom. I took all the toys out of the packaging, and gave them a gentle wash. The dildo was girthy and long, at least 9”, in my hands. I need two hands to give it a good grasp. I looked at the plugs that my friend had picked out. I shook my head at the largest one, but I did figure I could probably, at some point, try the smaller ones.
Dennis sent a pic of hisself from his shower. “Getting ready for my meeting, want to join me?”
“For the meeting, not thank you!”
”In the shower silly girl.”
”Now that would be nice. Go get clean and get to your meeting. I need to make some dinner.”
I did not need to make dinner it was that dildo that need a closer look. I picked it up and licked it around the tip. It was huge. I really wondered if I would even be able to take something like that. my eyes closed and I softly uttered Dennis’ name and swirled my tongue once more around the tip. I opened my mouth as wide as I possibly could and slowly worked my way down the phallic shaft. The hard rubber of the dildo was not very forgiving nor did it taste very good. But it was not a toy it was Dennis. My mouth was pleasuring his penis and that got me going. The more I thought of him the more I relaxed. The more I relaxed the more I could manage. Slowly up and down. Pushing into the back of my throat. Just the slightest gag and back out.
My vagina ached and it wanted its turn. I took the new toy and rubbed it between my wet aching lips. Rubbing it up over my clit. My brain continued to to imagine that it was Dennis. His hard thick penis pressing against my body. I ached even more for this toy. I wanted to feel the stretch.
I put the toy down, and picked up the lube. I opened the cap and squirted some of the slickness onto myself. YIKES! That was freaking cold. My fingers worked the slick gel into my wet open hole. Mixing it with my natural slickness. I was so wet and slick. I squirted more lube on to the toy and worked my hand up and down the shaft of the toy. In my head I heard Dennis telling me how good it felt.
I took the toy and positioned its head with my opening. Slowly I pushed feeling it open myself up. It had been so long since I had been opened like this. A once-empty hole was getting filled, “Oh Dennis,” I said softly over my lips. I listened to my body and took it slow. Slowly pushing and then pulling back before pushing just a bit more. Then I did it again till I had all the toy I felt I could take.
My vagina was stretched. I felt a new fullness. A new level of pleasure. The only thing more I wanted was to feel Dennis on top of me. To feel him kissing me. To feel his thrusts. The dildo slowly worked its self with my guidance. Each thrust of the toy was another thrust from Dennis. It felt so good. My imagination adding another layer to this.
There was one more toy my friend said I needed to add to this and that was the vibrator with this bulbous vibrating head on it. She said the Magic Wand was magical. I held the dildo inside of myself as I picked up the other toy. I pushed the power button it roared to life. This was not just a vibrator, it was a small engine.
With one hand I worked the dildo, and with the other I laid the vibrator on to my clit. OH MY! The sensations shot through my body like I had just been connected to a car battery. I pushed the button trying to find a vibrating pattern that was not as intense. Pattern after pattern my body screamed for more and more.
“OH Dennis, fuck me!“ I said out loud. My brain was going a thousand miles with images of Dennis ravaging my body. It did not hold back in any of the imagination. It was pulling things in from what I had seen at the store, to the ordinary. Dennis was using my body. I wanted him to use my body. My mouth, my vagina, and even though I had never thought of it in the past even my ass was being ravaged. I held nothing back. Anything I could do to offer Dennis pleasure my brain provided.
My body exploded in orgasmic bliss. I took the Magic Wand off of my clit and just collapsed on the bed. My body glistened with sweat from this new workout. I could feel the wetness on the bedding from where I had been pumping myself with the dildo. It really did not matter at this point in time. My energy was gone. It was much more than a sex coma. There was no way I could move.
I laid there for the next fifteen minutes working to recollect any energy I could. I was finally able to reach for my phone. I looked at myself in the phone. My hair was a mess. I pulled the frame back just enough that one could see my cleavage, snapped a quick pic, and sent it to Dennis. “Wishing you was here ;)” I then scrolled down to my friend and sent a quick text off to her simply saying holly cow. She replied back with a smile.
I managed to roll out of bed. I had an old bathrobe nearby that I covered myself up with loosely. Making my way out to the kitchen I found my Ben and Jerry’s. Sitting down in the living room I picked up my phone and there was a text from Dennis. Once more he had sent an image of hisself. His hand wrapped around his thick hard penis. His body covered with his garment, but this time they were soaked, clinging to his body, the color of his body obscured, but visible. ”I want you!” He said.
The more Dennis and I teased like this the harder it would be. My body was waking up. It no longer seemed that I was destined to be walking to the nunnery. Instead I was going to become a born again sexual being. A woman who had needs and wants that would be fulfilled. My body was wanting to be stuffed. To be penetrated. To be filled. My road back was starting.