I can't stop
So I wrote on here a couple of months ago about how I have been exploring this fetish through my writing for a while now. I've met a lot of different people who have been showing me different ideas and experiences. I met someone in particular about two months ago who did a bunch of writing with me that was really really interesting.
...they also started to convince me to eat while I was writing. I started stuffing myself while I was roleplaying weight gain stories. It was really embarrassing but also really hot. I have been eating *all the time* trying to chase that feeling and it's been really really bad for my waistline. Last week after I already ate an entire pasta dinner and cake, I got convinced to order a Dominos pizza and eat the whole thing.
I have gained over fifteen pounds this summer. Between the twelve before I started and that, I'm almost thirty pounds heavier than I was this time last year. I'm starting to look and feel chubby. I've never been fat my entire life, but I can't help it.
My friend who I was writing with has gotten busy with IRL stuff lately which is only making it worse. Now when I'm bored and horny I eat. I can't stop. I'm hungry all the time. Yesterday I went to see my brother's new baby and we got pizza for dinner, and when I went home afterwards I ordered more pizza just to make a pig of myself. I'm ruining my figure guys it's so bad.
Part of me really wants to go cold turkey.
...another part of me is so messed up and horny that I want to find more people to convince me to keep making bad decisions. What if I got... like... fat fat?