I hope to find a gentle soul who will help me to stop thinking, to stop the ego trap of selfishness. Who can help me just let go and let Mommy take over, trust in her to do what is best for me and not think about it anymore. Have a good and interesting day.
On the lookout for a woman who truly is sweet/soft at core and is able to capture a balance between sweet and severe. Looking for someone who wants to be Mommy in more than just title, who can bring a maternal vibe to every aspect, even if we play with bmail. The softness, the gentleness should feel authentic, and pervasive. Metaphorical example: whispering in my ear how I am your good little loser, while hugging and praising me. Whispering sweet nothings to me while emptying my account “the way it should be”. To impose cruelty through the lens of care and compassion. Though findom can be very transactional, I am hoping to find someone who can help me feel that what we are up to is not. I do have interest in extreme things, but the approach is key.
Bottom line for this fetish is that I don't have a lot of resources to offer. Can't work more than a part time job, spent a lifetime being drained by various women. Not much left in the tank. Budget can be variable, but limits are real. I am hoping for a compassionate and intelligent lady (knows who Camus and Nagarjuna are, as an example, and likes to read books in their hands, listen to John Coltrane on vinyl) who has a genuine interest in control and having someone in thrall to them. As long as amounts are less important than obedience and devotion and a sense of friendship at heart, we will get along fine.
I know I am not for everyone, but I can be loyal and devoted to the right person. I have a long list of fetish interests, some more fundamental to me than others, and can share those, as well as limits in private as you wish. My preferred method is Throne at moment, though I am open to any method that assures anonymity at first. If we become long term, that will of course change, and many other methods will be fine. Enjoy the day/night, fellow fetish traveler.