u/702james

35, I’ve been on TRT for 6 years from low natural production. I plan to stay on TRT. I identify as male, but I suppose wanting my balls cut off technically puts me somewhere on the gender non conforming spectrum.

I’ve wanted my balls gone since I was 19, they’ve always felt wrong. The best I can explain is is that I felt like I knew they’d be gone eventually, and they don’t belong there. I got close to alcohol injections back then but didn’t have the balls to do it, or the money for insurance copays.

I finally have a primary doctor I’m comfortable being fully open with, and discussed my body dysmorphia/gender identity. He’s referred me to another doctor, and says it will likely take 2 more years of documenting gender dysphoria for insurance to cover it. I’m not keen on being emotionally vulnerable to doctors over and over again. I’m not sure that wanting to stay male, but without testicles, will be enough since I don’t plan to transition or go further. The few friends I’ve told are supportive of me as a human, but not the action. They feel I’m “rushing” it by actually talking to a doctor. “If I know my testicles will be gone eventually, just wait, you don’t need to have them cut off”

I’m gay, fit, conventionally attractive, and frequently at nude events. I’m concerned about social stigma.

I’m married to a man, and in an open/poly relationship, and also have a boyfriend of 7 months. I don’t know expect the boyfriend to be a long term thing, but we enjoy life at the moment. My boyfriend wants to keep the testicles when I have them removed. It feels very odd to me. I don’t want them. I suppose even if he threw them in the trash later, they would have ended up there at the time of surgery if he didn’t keep them. I can’t identify a problem, but it feels strange to let him have them. If we end our relationship eventually and he has some former lover’s balls in a jar on his shelf- it seems very strange.

Any advice, additional side effects, or extra info I should be aware of? Thanks for reading, letting me vent, and helping me process these feelings.

I’m ready for my body to feel right and not have the useless flesh in the way.

35, I’ve been on TRT for 6 years from low natural production. I plan to stay on TRT. I identify as male, but I suppose wanting my balls cut off technically puts me somewhere on the gender non conforming spectrum.

I’ve wanted my balls gone since I was 19, they’ve always felt wrong. The best I can explain is is that I felt like I knew they’d be gone eventually, and they don’t belong there. I got close to alcohol injections back then but didn’t have the balls to do it, or the money for insurance copays.

I finally have a primary doctor I’m comfortable being fully open with, and discussed my body dysmorphia/gender identity. He’s referred me to another doctor, and says it will likely take 2 more years of documenting gender dysphoria for insurance to cover it. I’m not keen on being emotionally vulnerable to doctors over and over again. I’m not sure that wanting to stay male, but without testicles, will be enough since I don’t plan to transition or go further. The few friends I’ve told are supportive of me as a human, but not the action. They feel I’m “rushing” it by actually talking to a doctor. “If I know my testicles will be gone eventually, just wait, you don’t need to have them cut off”

I’m gay, fit, conventionally attractive, and frequently at nude events. I’m concerned about social stigma.

I’m married to a man, and in an open/poly relationship, and also have a boyfriend of 7 months. I don’t know expect the boyfriend to be a long term thing, but we enjoy life at the moment. My boyfriend wants to keep the testicles when I have them removed. It feels very odd to me. I don’t want them. I suppose even if he threw them in the trash later, they would have ended up there at the time of surgery if he didn’t keep them. I can’t identify a problem, but it feels strange to let him have them. If we end our relationship eventually and he has some former lover’s balls in a jar on his shelf- it seems very strange.

Any advice, additional side effects, or extra info I should be aware of? Thanks for reading, letting me vent, and helping me process these feelings.

I’m ready for my body to feel right and not have the useless flesh in the way.