Weird sexual things happened on vacation.
A while ago me and my friends planned a cruise vacation and 6 of us planned on going which I am currently on right now. It’s me my two guy friends and 3 girls. It was cheaper to get a 2 person room and a 4 person room. The girls specifically wanted me in their room probably because I’m the only one who never tried dating them. Also we are all 19 to 21. We are extremely close and have been for years we’ve seen each other in ways that are way to personal. There’s been times we’ve had to shower each other from throw up. It’s important to know we are very very close and I’ve never slept with or dated any of them.
Here’s the important part. It was late at night and I came back to the room with food I talked to the girls while eating and I said I’m gonna shower. As soon as the water runs I hear so much commotion and laughing. I get out the shower I throw on underwear and go into the living room area to get dressed. I see all three of them under the covers laughing and moaning. I freeze and think what in the actual fuck did I walk in on but I also thought maybe theyure not having sex and I could be tripping. My best friend out of the three girls popped her head out and said something to me. The other girls popped out as well and they were naked defilently fucking. She made a joke about me being handsome and lowkey I was confused did she want me to join them?? Idk why she said that idk why they were fucking in the first place. I get dressed and got out of there for a little bit and returned to them cuddled up watching tv. I know a lot of people might call me gay for not trying to sleep with them but bro I’m not promiscuous I’ve never even thought about doing anything like that. I’ve had a couple long term relationships that were normal relationships Ive never done weird sex stuff like that.
Here’s the embarrassing part the girl I called my best friend out of the three the one who called me handsome I kind of had a crush for a while. We were getting along better than we ever have and I truly felt like she was heavily feeling me. I got drunk and high and decided to run around with her we had good conversation and we made out before we went back to the room. We slept in the same bed that night we didn’t have sex but he cuddled and kissed all night. After two nights of this she got wasted and started tongue kissing our other girlfriend infront of me. (Before the cruise I’ve never seen anything like this so it’s shocking to see them fuxk then kiss like it’s normal) I was very weirded out and they noticed. Even after that I was still being a dumbass and slept with her for the first time. I’m soft when it comes to girls and I get attached after sex no exaggeration. so now I’m feeling jealous over a girl I’m not dating because she’s sleeping with our girlfriends we’ve known for years. Tomorrow is the last night of the vacation and shots got me stressed. I shouldn’t have messed around with this girl it made everything sloppy and weird.
The point of me posting this is just to hear opinions and how stupid I am. This vacation kind of ruined my image of my friends and the worst part is I want this girl so bad I have for a while. Should I try to wife her up or just get over my romantic thoughts. Also I’ve felt these feelings wayyyy before I was drinking with her and kissing her.
We are gonna leave to International waters soon so if I don’t answer that’s why we have no internet.