Some success finally
I have been interested in ass play for a long time but it was always here and there. only in the last few years have I finally gotten toys to explore with. Even then my first couple toys I ended up throwing out after a few tries. I always found it frustrating I could never relax enough for a toy to go in and out, or the mess that can come with it, also the prep and the time it takes always made me give up.
After some time I ended up buying a new prostate vibrator a year ago. After the first try, it reminded me of how good it can feel ha. I then decided that I would keep it and give stick with it this time. I then was able to get it just right that I could make myself cum with it without even stroking which was amazing. Don’t think I am getting that amazing prostate orgasm I read about but it feels great nonetheless.
Then a few months ago I decided to try a dildo again. I always wanted to try riding one but could never relax enough to easily slide in and out. So like the vibe, I decided to make more of an effort and not give up so easily. First few times it was great to just insert and stroke. Just having that full feeling was amazing.
Recently I had my most success. Kept inserting and holding and pulling it out and then reinserting and just going slow. I finally was able to relax enough that it was easily sliding in and out and man I was leaking like crazy haha. Also was finally able to take the full length. Now it’s only a 5 inch so no crazy depth play but I had always stopped at about halfway. Now I was relaxed enough I was able to take the whole length. The extra 1-2 inches made a whole lot of difference too! It only took a couple strokes and I came the most I had in a while.
I still haven’t had that full body prostate orgasm, but I am stimulating the right spots and things are feeling great and I feel I got over any hang ups I may have had with anal play.