Hey hey, I‘m M31 and I don’t know exactly where to start. When I started to explore my body more I‘ve been roughly 16 years old. I had an online girlfriend who was leading me a little and we did some stuff online when she told me to test out my own backdoor and even taste myself. She was a little older like 19 or something. Then somewhen we "broke" up, actually we haven’t seen us once because she was living a few hundred kilometers away.
Time was fading and those explorations stopped. With 19 I had a new girlfriend who now my wife and I tried to get her used with my kinks, back then I never new those where my kinks, I just enjoyed it. When I brought our first toys she wasn’t totally fine with it until I bought the first strap on. She wasn’t a fan of it but somehow we started using it more or less until some small "accident" happened because I didn’t clean well and then all that stopped for years, no more kinks, no more explorations.
A few years ago I started to buy myself toys, plugs, vibrators and so on and used them on my own, didn’t let her know. Somewhen chastity started and I actually talk with her about everything, this was maybe 3 years ago.
Until now she accepted all my kinks, I even told her that I‘m totally into femdom and she was „ok, we can try“.
Here comes my latest thing… I started to shave my whole body, I‘ve never done that in my 31 years. I trimmed it but nothing more. When I did finish my shavings and used a body location from her I felt really good and I could feel how my body reacted to it. Later the day I ordered a garter belt,stockings and new underwear, which I am wearing underneath my work clothes today.
I have no idea how to tell her, I‘m a little scared of her reaction and because I‘m starting to get easily nervous at topics like that, I won’t find the correct words..
I do need some motivation boost, some good words.. I don’t know.. some assistance maybe.
EDIT: I do have to say I love her, I love her every minute of the day. No matter what comes.