The sensation of being full kills my orgasms
First, grateful that I found this reddit. On this journey of self-exploration, I had my first vaginal orgasm couple of weeks ago. More blended but mostly vaginal, if that makes sense. At the time, I used something similar to a lipstick vibrator but longer and larger. I don't like the sensation of vibrations so, that was off.
I have been fortunate to have partners who were above average in size. Never had a PIV orgasm. I can say I enjoy the thrusts, when I'm into it, but nothing has ever gotten me there. I have fuller labia so the contact with my clitoris is minimal during penetration and I'm a slow burn. Prior to the discovery with the toy and clitoral stimulation, I never let my fingers do the walking during penetration. I was comfortable doing this during foreplay but something about the penis' position made it feel different, like I can't get to that spot that I need to and that it's stretched/numbed.
I always felt that I penetration makes me feel "full" and stretched out, no pain whatsoever and not unenjoyable...just full.
So after my recent discovery, I invested in a 7 inch dildo to find out more about this sensation. Here's what happens... same sensation of fullness even after arousal and lots of lube amd taking my time. Stuck with it and incorporated finger play all through. I can tell when the lengthening and tenting (just learnt that that's what it's called) etc happens and I'm about to climax but I know what usually happens next is I clench and then the vaginal contractions begin and always pushes my finger/toy out.
With the new toy, I felt like the fullness was a hindrance especially since from what I could gather, I couldn't contract the way I'm used to. All orgasms are great but I kept edging and I wasn't able to have one as powerful as I had with the "smaller" toy and I could tell that the contractions were sort of interrupted by the fullness. I also struggled to keep it in. It was definitely a clitoral orgasm and not blended.
I feel like having a partner with a larger size was always sold to as the ideal l but now I'm like, is it really? I would like to enjoy my partner regardless of size but I'm now more open.
Regarding the fullness, has anyone had a similar experience and how did they figure it out?