It makes me want to complete my goal no matter what and at any cost. I feel unstoppable in completing this goal. The goal is jacking off to porn. I will vigorously abuse my third leg even If I can't finish anymore...because I have a mission and I am willing to complete it by any means necessary.
If you don't take hardcore abusive doses but a little bit for a mild buzz, will it be hard on your heart? 90-180mg pure DXM from robotabs. Also is it still a no with stimulants?
I took 75mg tianeptine sodium and it hit me with opioid-level body relaxation, moderate euphoria, anxiety relief.
However, it did not feel like exactly like a classical opiate (maybe except oxy). It wasn't sedating at all. I had so much energy, like even too much. I felt EXTREMELY confident, talking to people was never easier but I was likely acting like a crackhead. My speech was like I was on crack, talking really fast and so on. All this happening while I had waves of euphoria hitting me. It did not last long, 4 hours maybe but I felt high as fuck.
Is this why this shit is so addictive? It's like a really energizing opiate? It would probably be different with higher doses. But it really seemed to give me almost everything I wanted from a drug: strong anti-anxiety, euphoria and confidence. Kind of like a stimulant but I don't need to stack a benzo on top to counter anxiety and the confidence boost was way better. I heard it's extremely fiendish and addictive and it makes sense why.
Btw this happened a year ago, I haven't taken tia ever since.
People talk about doing 100mg of vyvanse, 60mg adderall, a ton of dex but for me, I feel uncomfortably numb, irritated and just mad at my existence at anything over 20mg Vyvanse or 5mg Dex.
However, at 20mg or 5mg life does feel much better, with Vyvanse rush lasts same as Dex but then I get a few more hours of just feeling okay-good but not super good. And I don't seem to build a tolerance to any dose, like say when I was using higher doses I d feel the same etc. But I take them orally
Why is that? I thought more dopamine = better mood
It's really hard to talk to people without some post-irony or dumb shit to make regular convos more interesting and get through small talk. I find it somewhat fixable with stims but stims don't always fix the barriers to social interaction like anxiety and other shit.
What's gonna be the next best thing to stack on top of the stimulant for this? Something you can do sometimes, not an opiate. I'd rather not drink alcohol either.
Do downers help you feel the high of stims? Sometimes when amps are peaking I get a jittery high where I feel a bit like a zombie and uninterested but also anxious and worried about things. Would taking a downer help with getting the high?
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What kind of downer is best for this? I want to take the edge off and access the euphoria, not add more euphoria on top from an opiate or other stuff.