u/AdvanceKnown726

I just recently turned 18 and i used to never jerk off. Until a little over a year ago when i decided to take the nasal route with my adderall. It got me so horny that my usual gay porn wasn’t enough for me. I stayed in my room for hours going deeper and deeper. I used to just prefer gay porn but not because i was gay. Eventually it became femboys, then sissies. Sissy captions and hypno videos kept coming up and eventually it was all i watched. If there isnt cock i dont want it.

After seeing that kinda porn it changed something in my brain. I tried to stop myself but every time i did it, its like a switch flips i go from normal straight guy to some cock addicted sissy slut. I knew the moment those sissy porn clips popped in my head id be in for hours of gooning.

I tried to say I kept doing the addy bc it helped me focus but in reality i was only doing it so i could stay locked in my room for days gooning like a good porn addict. Right now its just videos i watch but i wonder if i should go full sissy or keep it just as a porn thing? sissy’s all i think about now

I never used to jerk off but when i started doing addy i couldn’t help myself. anytime i get high on addy and chief my dispo i get so horny for weirder and weirder shit. At least compared to what im used to

im currently in the middle of gooning high asf ive been humping my pillow for hours now

at first it was just gay porn whenever i got high. then femboys, then sissy porn. I couldn’t get off unless there was cock in the video. Ofc that wasn’t enough i started getting off on yiff, clopping, cringe slop in general. I used to hate feet but fuck they turn me on so much now especially dirty stinky feet. I didnt think it was a problem until i got triggered more and more easily everyday. I cant even watch My little pony without getting turned on.

Every time i do addy i tell myself i wont jerk off this time but sure enough i find myself searching sissy hypnosis. Everytime going deeper and deeper. I cant help but goon for hours on end sometimes off and on after i get high and i dont even find myself trying to stop
fuck at this point i do it so i can goon to cringe loser pornos i love how lost in the session i get if i last long enough i start sticking my tongue out and rolling my eyes back it makes me feel so slutty, i usually lock myself in my room the whole day away from my family for porn. I just recently turned 18 and with no school i can goon for hours on end

I feel so grossed out by myself but the smell, the wet feeling, the sweat all makes me feel like a good gooner and turns me on triggering me all over again

i try to pretend im normal like everyone else but i secretly fantasize about being used by anyone who has a cock.