I don’t know what my issue is, maybe it’s cuz I’m a switch, maybe it’s childhood trauma, but oftentimes when a dom asks me to “beg” or “beg for it” i get SO turned off i feel the need to get violent.
i just don’t understand why it turns me off when i will beg on occasion if i desperately want something. and i am turned on by being told what to do so i’m not sure why i have such a visceral reaction to being told to beg. idk if my brain is linking it to being told what to want or if begging is just a turn off for me idk.
when i’m in the role of dom, i will occasionally ask for begging and it’s hot so i understand why doms ask for it but i don’t know why i hate it so much when i sub. i don’t really know how to act when i’m asked to beg so it just ends up being a lot of awkward silence until i can figure out what to say and it never feels good because it’s not authentic and it feels more like a chore than anything else i do in the bedroom. literally makes me wanna scream, cry, and punch my partner in the face.
what is wrong with me and how do i ask doms to quit asking me to beg? or am i the problem?