My needs are growing as I’m learning what I like and don’t like from a dynamic. I think my needs are growing out of the range that my dom can give. I did not know I was to going to get to this point but I am and I feel helpless. I have feelings that are growing and I find myself yearning for more and more from someone who I don’t think has more to give. We both have crazy brutal work schedules, a big time zone difference. He had one rule which now I know is stupid because feelings don’t have rules. I don’t want to disrespect him or his partner by even bringing emotions up. I feel I can tell him anything but this is one thing I can’t do. I know I should get out of my head but it’s hard as a girly who has an anxious attachment style and I don’t know where I really even stand with him or how he “feels”
I don’t know if it’s feelings, or sub frenzy or what but I’m stuck in my head struggling and reeling but there isn’t much I’m certain of when it come to him. Just venting I guess. I think I got it bad but it’s gunna fuck me up