To the person who help me and treat me like I am a person. Thank you, I was a having a hallucination episode and yes I am diagnosed. And I am getting the help I need! I really didn't remember posting that until my former partner mentioned it. He's giving all the love I need and everything. Also if anyone can give me advice on how to cope with this sex drive, please let me know! (I am sorry for that though)
I was 14, and I was in a bad state, and I was a wannabe rebel, and I was dating someone, and they were around my age, and also we dated after we met weeks ago. and I got too comfortable and ask for nudes, and they accepted it. But I also mentioned they don't have to, and everything. and they didn't mind and just did it. but i fucked up the relationship by going through something because I thought I was possessed by a demon and started faking mental illnesses like DID and schizophrenia. they said this to me after I posted something I shouldn't have and it was mandela catalogue, and I posted something about it I shouldn't have, and this is what they posted to me in Wattpad "You don't have DID, you do not have schizophrenia, You violated Alex Kister's wishes, get help." even though I acted like I was brave and said things to them. I fucking regretted it. I wish I was dead, for fuck sake. I don't care for death threats or anything; I deserved it. The voices hurt and everything. The guilt that I caused them was awful; I just wanna kill myself and make everyone forget me for who I am. that's it, i'm done.