u/Agreeable-Lie-4143

I am male, I love the idea of it and always have. I know why it is I do, stemming from abuse as a child that is now something else and something I am happy and content with. I am not going into to detail on said abuse as it’s not entirely something I like to bring up but I know that I now do enjoy this idea and don’t know how to really explain it to people. I have been in relationships before and all were initiated by the other. I really just hope to find this relationship again albeit a healthy and consensual one. I guess I really just need advice with this, I have struggled with explaining how I feel to past lovers as I am in a town in the US that is not really open to these relationships.