Hi community.
I tried MDMA for the first time about a year and a half ago. I had experience with mushrooms and ketamine for depression.
My mind was blown cause not only everything felt amazing, but I realized that maybe because of my history of depression and Neurodiversity, my baseline was lower. My ability to feel emotions specially happiness was I think broken jn a way.
So I used it many times. But ima. Era and I do a lot of research, and I try to be really responsible with my health, so I’m getting to a point where I think I should take a break. I’ve read opposite experiences. People saying you lose the magic and can do permanent neurological damage, people saying they use frequently for years and they’re fine. Whatever the case. I don’t think it’s healthy to have to take mdma every time I want to enjoy going out. Also I’m scared of comedowns since I’ve had a couple bad ones.
Thing is. Lately I’ve tried going out sober, or in a very low dose of mushrooms, and for some reason, nothing makes me feel my body and my soul like mdma. I’ve tried 2cb since people saying it can have a similar effect and it does nothing for me.
I just can’t feel my body, or the music in the same way, I’m self conscious and just want to go home.
Has anyone found anything that helps open yourself up, get in touch with your body and your senses that’s not MDMA, less harmful and more sustainable?
I really really wish and it makes me sad that I just can’t feel myself In a natural state, but maybe it’s the way my brain is wired, and my nervous system.
I will keep trying things that are more natural and healthy, but it’ll be a transition I think. So any advice would be greatly appreciated.
Peace ✌️
Thanks!