u/Alpha-sales

HALF LIFE

Still fucking high 😭🔥

So boom… I’ve slept like 2-3am to noon today (Mother’s Day Sunday activities 💀), woke up late like at 12pm… feeling AMAZING from yesterday’s prescribed benzos afterglow. Slept like a literal baby.

Morning routine:
2mg clonazepam, 150mg pregabalin, smoked a J
went outside to deposit money for more iCloud storage because my iPhone situation is cooked rn 📱☠️

Everything was normal.

BUT THE SECOND I SMOKED A CIGARETTE…

🗣️FAAAAAA 🔥

Bro… I swear I instantly felt yesterday’s benzos all over again like they got reactivated out of nowhere. Full body relaxation, felt crossfaded for a second, almost like somebody hit me with chloroform and wine at the same time 💀

I’ve NEVER felt a cigarette hit like that before in my life.

And now Vyvanse finally hit pharmacies here in Mexico 🇲🇽 so later I’m picking up my first prescription too. 😭

I’m currently on titan, matter of fact had to pop two. 10mg tablets to get back to sober. I was literally SHITFACED, barred TF out, could not speak or walk, so I walked back home. 😂

BUT SERIOUS QUESTION 😭🔥

Has anybody ever had an experience like this before???

Like where nicotine or SOMETHING randomly brought back or intensified the effects of meds hours later?

I KNOW ABOUT HALF-LIFES (been on benzos like 10 years now). But I’ve genuinely never felt anything like this before 💀

I want to know the personal effect in every individual and also I’m considering buying lorazepam I just need fellow people who know .

I really want to fill a script 100 2mg klonopins or 90, 2mg Xanax.

Let the ranking begging, my list:

Diazepam
I find Diazepam heavenly enjoyable, like walking on clouds type of body relaxation, low taxing long term, good for tapering off smoothly. Strangely half life is felt super slightly for days while duration of action hit like in 10 minutes and leaves peak effect for 4-6 hours kinda like Xanax.

Clonazepam
Also low taxing long term, super functional it’s kinda crazy how you can pop these like candy again kinda like Xanax. Takes long to hit like 1-2 hours but “does last like 8ish hours”. Half life leaves quickly like the rest of the day or the next day.

Alprazolam
Unlike other Benzos this one is taxing specially mentally. Xanax brand name from Pfizer. Mexican Farmapram or just real RX Xanax are too good.
Mentally the most clear headed, don’t give a shit type of benzo. Can easily be overdone, turns me into a kleptomaniac, extremely confident. Hit quick like 15-20mins but leaves like in 2-4 hours, 6 if I’m lucky. Unfortunately half life is not felt “at all” again 1 hour of your lucky but BOY do I love Xanax. These are hard for me to control in my country 🇲🇽 They are just so easy to get.

Bromazepam
Overall the only benzo that “Only helps anxiety” super smoothly without people noticing your actually quite functional it’s like a long lasting functional Xanax.

Lorazepam (never tried)
Never bought a script due to stories talking about it being ass, strangely they run more expensive over here.

What is your RX tier list? No

Very quick, so I was able to down my intake from 34mg (klonopin/xanax) to just 8mg, in the lapse of 7 days. No discomfort, no withdrawals.

I tapered one month ago before going back at it. It was the worst experience and I’ve cut benzos multiple times. This one was the most hard core.

I realized that benzos help me live life normal, exercise (I’ve gained muscle mass super quick). I’m better at holding convos, better at getting jobs, flirting, eating, sleep.

My question is:

1. Should I jump off after lowering dosage?

2. Or take a responsible dose of 2-4mg and take psychological therapy?

Hey guys just wanted to update you all on how I’m doing after quitting and then relapsing.

So I was doing some research and it turns out I did 26 days sober, relapsed on April 27.

And binged Xanax/Klonopin:

8mg-20mg-15mg-24mg-33mg-12mg…

So 7 days today plus today (I’ve only done 4mg)

Surprisingly I feel good and wish to not go higher than 6 today. Tomorrow will probably drop to 4mg then 2mg then 1mg.

Ive had many withdrawals and this last one was horrific to say the least. My question is:

1. Can I jump off sooner?

2. Can I stay con Xanax or Klonopin until I fix my life? Around 2-4mg (that’s it!).

Appreciate if you don’t judge. This is my mental health I’m talking about and I take it seriously even though I’ve screwed up in the past with this.

I took a tolerance break from April 7th to April 29th. I was doing benzos everyday for 1 year and a half and well my withdrawal sucked to say the least. I was doing 26-30mg daily and was draining my pockets, not to mention getting fired at every sales gig I got hired.

Fast forward today “a few days later” and I’m binge eating benzos like I never took the tolerance break, well at-least today I’ve only done 11mg but yesterday I did 24mg, I don’t even black out anymore just don’t give a fuck about anything.

The first day like April 30th I did a 1/4 of Klonopin and got me drowsy but now a full 2mg Klonopin or Xanax doesn’t do shit just tunes down my stress.

I seriously cannot feel like myself, can’t even leave my house without a benzo on me and I’m completely none functional without benzos. I’m like completely autostic, zero social skills, Klonopin and Xanax are god tier for my daily life.

I don’t think I can ever be off benzos unless I become super wealthy and I can taper off completely. Fuck sobriety for me at this time of my life.

Can I take a year to at-least fix my life?