I apologize in advance as this may be a bit long of a post. TLDR at the bottom.
I've been trying to figure out myself the last few months and I'm just ending up a bit lost. I've been self locking off and on for years. Sometimes weeks/months and sometimes just a weekend. Never with a KH. I've noticed that if I'm talking to someone I'm interested in romantically I tend to want to be unlocked, but if I'm not talking to someone I gravitate back to being locked. Am I just talking to the wrong type of people? Maybe I'm trying to fit into social norms?
A few other points, when locked I have a varity of things I don't do when unlocked. Such as shaving, being more sexual, anal play etc. When I'm unlocked sexual things generally disappear unless I'm talking with someone I'm highly interested in. Then it becomes more the normal masculine sexual play. I understand chastity turns me on and causes the other things to a start.
I guess where I'm confused is why do I switch back and forth I feel more comfortable being locked and am much more productive in general.
I know no one can tell me what is right but maybe someone has a suggestion that will help. Feel free to ask any questions as well.
TLDR - Conflicted about what feels right. Looking for thoughts.