u/Alternative-Ice6404

F25 since I got into this fetish more and actually gained weight it's started to feel like it's my destiny to get fatter. I'm already up 40lbs and I find so many fat girls so hot and I just get jealous I'm not them. I can tell and have noticed my brain become more and more food focused, I've gotten laser,being out of shape or struggling turns me off a lot and I love playing with my fat and no matter how much I resist I get deeper and I genuinely think I might be stuck this way. My gf plays with my stomach fat a ton and it makes me wanna gain more and I'm becoming so addicted and really wanna get more and hoping I end up being 200+ lbs. Difficulties doing anything more turns me on so much and I just wanna feel fat, My stomach doesn't fold over yet much when not sitting and I'm so looking toward to that happening. idk why movement struggles are so hot but I'm scared I'm too deep but it's okay I think. I am wanting to get obese so bad it sounds so hot and fun. I just jiggle do much end every pound I swear I get dumber and it's so fun losing myself and becoming fat and ditzy. It so hard to not let it all control and own me and I think I'm only getting deeper and losing my myself more I can't wait up be bigger. hopefully this is the right path for me, cause it's so euphoric.