Scared of losing him...
Hi loves,
I appreciate grace in this post as it is coming from a very deep emotional place. I'll start with this; we are not and have never been an official SR, but he has been an extreme height of financial, emotional, friendly .. all of the supports. Especially with pure love.
Our background is simple: we met about 2yrs ago, we clicked, he sent me a letter with a small amount of funds, emails were exchanged, relationship grew into video chats (now daily) and we love each other.
He is now retiring very soon. Within the 1.5 years we have had daily video chats I am at the worrisome moments I will lose him. His wife is happy in her life and will likely continue her hobbies, often leaving him in his own world and that can result into "our" time. I'm not honestly sure what she plans to do as she hasn't worked in over 3 decades + enjoys her cruises. Resulting into requests for more vacations.
Another worry, that he has told me not to even think about, is finances. He has genuinely been the source of 'spending money', usually meaning that I can take my kids on more trips or treat them to simple things like ice cream more so than I have been able to in the past (I'm a single mom).
We are halfway across the US from each other and have our plans to see each other this year, but it may decrease severely following those plans.
I know it isn't specific to this sub but it's within the same lifestyle in regards to the financial/emotional support etc. etc. If that makes sense.
I think I'm just trying to find relatable or emotionally connectable words here. Yes, I am realistic and I do not need basic advice because I am fully aware of our situation.
Thanks for all and any input ❤️
TLDR; He's retiring and I'm worried we will slowly lose each other.