Dream a Little Dream
I've been dressing since before kindergarten. Thinking about the idea of SRS for as long as I knew it was a thing. But just about ALWAYS kept it hidden! Even with friends and girlfriends that wanted to dress me up for fun, I played it down because I was afraid they'd panic if they actually saw how much I liked it. No...how much I LOVED IT!
Even if they were on board, I was afraid I'd take it too far and they'd get tired of it. Not so much hard to trust, just afraid of choosing the wrong person to confide in and having a real problem. So I kept it to myself.
ONE TIME, I did go out and meet other cd's. Drove 2 hours away to meet them. It was very nice being in the company and getting to know others. I'd hoped it was a good start. Life had other ideas.
So I did what I had to do. Put it all aside, kept my head down, went to work, and just did what I had to do. And that's all I did. For WAY too long.
I'm NOT DONE yet! Though my window has grown quite small. And over the years I've learned SO MUCH more about what I want and need and I'm not afraid of it anymore.
I'm 54 now. More sure than EVER before I want to experience my feminine side out in the world. While I had always hoped a woman would mentor me, encourage me, and mostly have fun geeking out over girly things and, well....you know! 😉
Then I remembered the friends I had before. The leap I nearly took so long ago and didn't. I realized as much as I DO love women, I think I'd ESPECIALLY LOVE a girl with a little (LOT) xtra to offer! And the more I think about it, the more I yearn for it so bad I can almost cry.
If I could ever get ONE perfect night out, dressed to thrill. Right place with the right friends full of passion and pleasure at the end? I'd die a happy person.
That's the dream. For now? I'm just happy to talk to any kind of girl again. NOBODY has touched me in over 25 years. 😱 So basically everything IS like happening for the first time. MANY things will be the first. I just don't ever want to start anything with ANYONE with this as a secret. I haven't yet.
Letting my femme side out is one thing. Unlocking what lies beyond that? (VERY bottom sub) Not even I can know what's gonna happen. I only ask that whoever does the honors, makes me BELIEVE!!! And I mean MAKES ME! 😏
That might not be easy, but should be fun. I hope. But til then, I'm not gonna hurry anything just yet. I'd just LOVE to hear from any of the open minded girls out there!