u/Ambitious-Joke-9255

For context, I am a 23 yr old male. My sister is 20 yrs old and bisexual. currently she is dating another woman which is completely fine with me in the grand scheme of things. But not okay in the sense of my own personal jealousy. My sister and I am close now and love each very much. Unfortunately, I don’t think she sees me the same way. I will admit I have not only emotional feelings towards her but sexual impulses. I would never act on those feelings without her consent. It is just unbearably hard to live with these feelings. I have depression and anxiety as well which doesn’t help either and honestly makes things worse. I don’t know how to deal with the way I feel or if I should even talk to her about my feelings. What if she brings it up to my parents? I know they would disown me. Im scared she may just freak out and I ruin things with the family. I do know it wouldn’t be fair to bring up my feelings rn while she is in a happy loving relationship with the nice woman she’s dating. What do I do? Any advice would help greatly.