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So, let's continue. Consequently, putting the plan into action in that room (without a door), I left the light off so that she would be surprised and think that it hadn't been a planned situation. I started masturbating, paying attention to the footsteps that would indicate if she was coming down. When she finally came down, unlike other attempts of mine (in which I interrupted masturbation and gave up on being caught), I continued masturbating, apprehensive about the uncertainty of whether she would enjoy it. It was a moment of great adrenaline. She turned on the light, saw my penis out, and I didn't stop masturbating. She must have seen it for about 2 seconds, and said "what is that, boy?", leaving the room and telling me to stop. She never brought up the subject again.
Unfortunately, I was unsuccessful, giving up on trying again. Since that moment (7 years ago), I have continued masturbating thinking about her and smelling and seeing her panties. I even came in one of her used panties, but if she noticed, she didn't say anything. Nowadays, we've both moved, and she lives with her boyfriend (with whom she's been in a relationship for over 15 years), and I don't hit on her, treating her only as the dear cousin she's always been.

However, if I had the opportunity now, I would certainly like to have sex with her or have some kind of sexual interaction with her, but I don't feel comfortable being more forward with her (because she's dating and is my much older cousin). I would really like her to take the initiative (very unlikely). From time to time, I masturbate thinking about those moments from my puberty. Anyway, leave your opinions and suggestions. Thank you in advance for your attention.

When I was a teenager (im male), I didn't have mobile devices, and since my cousin only came home from work at night, I used to stay in her room (on the 2nd floor) during the afternoon to use the internet on her TV or laptop. I would often watch porn in her room and also masturbate thinking about her (a hot BBW, 20 years older). I liked to look at her panties and jerk off with them wrapped around my penis, but to avoid leaving traces, without ejaculating. I also used to smell her used panties and jerk off. There were variations of sexy thongs, which probably ended up buried in her huge ass.

At home, she was comfortable, wearing slightly transparent dresses, which sometimes allowed me to see her panties and her breasts showing through the thin fabric. When I discovered, looking at her search history on the laptop, that she consumed a lot of porn, I got quite excited, because she wasn't transparent (which is normal). However, unfortunately, I never managed to catch her masturbating or see any of her naked, I only succeeded in spying on her through the bathroom door handle a few times. Knowing that her pussy had hair turned me on even more.
Since we used to occasionally watch movies together in her room without her boyfriend (after all, we were cousins ​​who lived together, which was normal), when my dick got harder, I tried to make it more obvious, but she didn't notice or pretended not to see. Because of these failed attempts and the desire to fuck her, I started to wish she would catch me masturbating. It was difficult because there were a lot of people at home. So, my plan was to masturbate, around midnight, in a room next to the kitchen and adjacent to the bathroom where she showered.

(I will write part 2)

So, let's continue. Consequently, putting the plan into action in that room (without a door), I left the light off so that she would be surprised and think that it hadn't been a planned situation. I started masturbating, paying attention to the footsteps that would indicate if she was coming down. When she finally came down, unlike other attempts of mine (in which I interrupted masturbation and gave up on being caught), I continued masturbating, apprehensive about the uncertainty of whether she would enjoy it. It was a moment of great adrenaline. She turned on the light, saw my penis out, and I didn't stop masturbating. She must have seen it for about 2 seconds, and said "what is that, boy?", leaving the room and telling me to stop. She never brought up the subject again.
Unfortunately, I was unsuccessful, giving up on trying again. Since that moment (7 years ago), I have continued masturbating thinking about her and smelling and seeing her panties. I even came in one of her used panties, but if she noticed, she didn't say anything. Nowadays, we've both moved, and she lives with her boyfriend (with whom she's been in a relationship for over 15 years), and I don't hit on her, treating her only as the dear cousin she's always been.

However, if I had the opportunity now, I would certainly like to have sex with her or have some kind of sexual interaction with her, but I don't feel comfortable being more forward with her (because she's dating and is my much older cousin). I would really like her to take the initiative (very unlikely). From time to time, I masturbate thinking about those moments from my puberty. Anyway, leave your opinions and suggestions. Thank you in advance for your attention.