22 lbs heavier in one month… and I could barely handle walking today
Hey everyone,
I wanted to share something that happened today because it honestly surprised me and really made me realize how much things have changed recently.
Since the end of February, I haven’t been working anymore, so I barely leave my apartment. The only times I’ve gone out were to get driven somewhere to eat with friends, or to go downstairs quickly to pick up Uber Eats orders. Other than that, I’ve basically been inside the whole time.
Since getting back into gaining, I went from 143.9 kg (317.2 lbs) on April 6th to around 154 kg (339.5 lbs) today, so roughly +10.1 kg (+22.3 lbs) in a bit more than a month. Honestly, seeing how fast that happened still feels kind of crazy haha.
For over a month now, I’ve barely moved. Most days I probably do around 100 steps total, just walking between my room, the kitchen, and the bathroom. Today though, I had an appointment and actually had to go out. Even though I took the bus, I still ended up walking more than 2,500 steps. A few months ago that would have been nothing. Today, it felt brutal.
The moment I left home, I already noticed I was getting out of breath, and I had barely even started walking. By the time I got near the appointment, my legs were already hurting, calves, shins, feet, everything. I was sweating too, even though I had barely done anything yet.
I was also wearing a hoodie that used to fit me perfectly a few months ago, even loose back then. Now it still fits, but you can already see my moobs and my stomach showing through it more. I was sucking my stomach in the whole time because I still have trouble fully owning how big I’ve gotten in public. If I had relaxed it completely, I honestly would have looked pregnant haha.
When I got to the waiting room, the chairs were those rounded plastic-style ones that kind of wrap around you. I sat down and immediately felt how tight it was. I could feel my back rolls pushing out and spreading against the chair. Honestly… that feeling was kind of wild. My next appointment is in a little over a month, and I really hope that by then I’ll be even bigger and have an even harder time fitting into that chair.
After the appointment, I still had to walk again to go buy food for today. I picked up a 1 kg lasagna, some chocolate croissants, and a few other things. Then I had to bus home and walk again after that. The whole way back, I was still out of breath, my legs still hurt, and everything felt heavy. It was rough… but at the same time exciting, because it really showed me how much I’ve changed in such a short time.
It’s honestly an incredible feeling seeing my body getting weaker the more weight I gain, especially because I barely move while continuing to get heavier. So the second I actually have to walk, my body struggles to keep up.
Anyway, that was my little story from today. Thanks for reading, and I hope you all have a great day or night.