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I met My ex (F27) on tinder and the first night we fucked ,and we continued to fuck every day but only at night ,I didn’t suspect anything at first I thought she would just wait for me,she played the innocent part,love bombing me,sucking me up all night when we linked.

Two weeks later she tells me she got an apt and invited me to celebrate ,we did. We drank and partied and fucked from morning to night and fell asleep together on what I thought was her bed. She woke me up and said “THATS HIM WAKE UP” I woke up confused and saw a man crying on the couch , I have no idea who he is but since he was inside the apt I thought it was her brother ,he was crying and shaking looking sad watching his BM in his bed with a bigger man (me) I was like who tf is that ? She said “my bd he broke in “ I was like wtf !!?!? I didn’t know she had a kid ,I didn’t know it wasn’t her actual apt,he paid for the first 3 months but signed it in her name ! Not only that I didn’t find all this out for two months . She kicked him out and he called the cops,total buzz kill because I wanted to just leave but I didn’t want to be questioned by the cops it all felt weird .

That’s a whole different side of the relationship I can get into but that’s not what this is about . This is when I start finding out she’s lying but don’t catch on just yet. She continues to have me at her apt and we fuck for weeks that turned into 3 months almost all day and night ,in this time we are spending most of our every single day and nights together ,she plays the whole innocent role and sells me the story she wants me forever,I’m the only guy,she hates her Bd because she would beat her,her mom is taking care of the kid mostly tbh ! She plays the victim and she’s a short,pretty face Latina,pretty feet ,she makes me fall for the trap and stop entertaining women . This is when she’s changing me .

We share what we like sexually and we confess everything about our lives and why we probably like the things we like ,basically trauma bonding and sexually healing at this point. I confess to her I wore my exs panties one time and it made me nut because I look like a thick girl,we laugh about it but then she makes me wear hers ,she shaved me ,eats my ass and she masturbates ,she continues to eat my ass ,shave my legs ,suck my toes ,eat me up n down,i stop wearing the lingerie because i didnt want her to think im gay because of the things she’s doing to me,dominating me sexually ,for me im thinking she’s worshipping me.

This continued for about 3 months then i saw her phone when she was asleep ,i never in my life did that but at this point i felt a little shadiness form her. I saw her messages, this completely messed up my mind ,because I was with her all day about everyday and there was only a few hours we didn’t see eachother. She had been flirting and talking to multiple men,not even any Girls?!? It’s like she didn’t have female friends like she claimed. She had been flirty with her BD even though she allegedly despised him,I hate that bum too but I didn’t think i would uncover all this information,she was texting about 40 different men and that was all I saw on just iMessage. I felt betrayed and hurt . I confront her about what I saw then she gets mad and kicks me out of “her apt”

This is when our relationship got worse,I didn’t wanna take her back but she was such a good slut,I didn’t want to be with her because of the kid but she completely manipulated me by “worshipping” me and again I was back with her like a simp ,she was just so good at pleasing,she had a face you just want to fuck,,her body was so petite,she just looked so sexy in every way. She love bombed me until she felt like I trusted her but I never did after that .

Then she started distancing herself for hours ,then face timing me while she was sucking another guy and I didn’t realize because I would tell her wtf is that noise ? And she’s like “nobody is here it’s just my son you can come” and I would out of anger but I took screen shots and now I’m looking at them and for the whole year I was with her she did this to me,Cucking me ,breaking me down ,she became more disrespectful with me,distancing herself but still inviting me over to fuck the same day or later that day after ignoring me,she started slowly making me submissive every time we had sex,she started choking me and jerking me off,yelling at me but then sucking me off,she sucked and licked every part on my body. But then she would become disrespectful and break up with me for no reason . This cycle happened like 8 times . I don’t know why I kept going back I just wanted to fuck her again she was just so damn sexy but she was just a whore,I can see why her BD would beat her but I never did .

Regardless she started making me more and more submissive,she would act out and make fights just so she could be alone ,I know she was probably fucking someone else,but then she’d call me like nothing happened and invite me to fuck ,I think she liked knowing she had cum inside her while I fucked her and nutted in her too,she was just such a good whore but I fell in love with how she made me feel and all the suspicions I had would break me down as a man ,but at the same time abusing me ,using me,stealing from me,manipulating me,being away from her and not ever knowing the truth bothered me,hurt me,but then it would turn me on having those thoughts eventually,she never admitted even though all my suspicions were correct, she would continue this until we broke up but she called me and said “why don’t you just admit you want a big Dick ,you love wearing thongs fucking faggot,go suck a dick fucking faggot” that was the last time she called me. She blocked me ,on everything.

But all this lead me down to watching more dominating women feminizing men,cuck porn,porn that looks like her getting fucked ,cheating porn ,cock sucking videos. All this messed up my brain,I’m not attracted to men but I’m attracted to being feminized ,and her calling me a faggot turned me on . I want to just feel like a slut now. She completely ruined me,she was so abusive mentally ,physically,and sexually then just left out of no where . She made me want to be a slut . She would make out with me whisper “this is how I suck dick” she showed me with her tongue,she constantly hinted about making me watch her suck dick but never admitted even when I told her I would be down jokingly,she realized I was not a real man and left.