u/Appropriate-Pie-1962

I found a black guy on the streets on my way home and he invited me to his apartment so I went without hesitation and he knew what I wanted because as soon as we were inside his apartment he told me to drop my pants and I obeyed and begged him to let me suck his cock.

I sucked his cock all night like a stupid bimbo thanking him daddy. I went home the next day without being able to stop thinking about it.

I didn't know what got into me but started trying lingerie or would wear panties and I even painted my toe nails.

I started trying to get guys to f*ck me. I one day went to my barber's house because I sorta invited myself and went to his bed right away where he saw me with painted toe nails and panties and he liked it I guess because he continued putting his cock in my anus.

Then I felt like getting on grindr where I found a guy to bring to my room. His cock was too big to fit but he finger banged me and then I uncomfortably sucked his cock he had to tell me to slow down.

I started to get scared afterwards I threw away all the feminine stuff I bought. But things didn't end there. I found a black guy on the streets on my way home and he invited me to his apartment so I went without hesitation and he knew what I wanted because as soon as we were inside his apartment he told me to drop my pants and I obeyed and begged him to let me suck his cock.

I sucked his cock all night like a stupid bimbo thanking him daddy. I went home the next day without being able to stop thinking about it and tried to lay off bambi sleep but now I feel it hard to resist and I feel like I've relapsed. What should I do?

36 M tried to resist but bambi is relapsing