Random hookups
Hey so as a fellow HS individual it's very common for us to seek sex more than anything, but that becomes hard for single people like myself as our only option is to watch porn, jerk off and "Goon" and the second option is random hookups from all these apps and shit or just a hooker from a street and I am slowly starting to get into the hookup and hooker part where the urges are so strong I am even willing to pay someone to spend an hour with me.
In the past I have told myself and my therapist that I wish to avoid hookups as it's just an escape for me and I don't wanna make myself a whore by taking off my cloths in front of just anyone but the urges keep making me go this route and I often see myself leaving my apartment at 2 am for a hookup at a hotel or someone's apartment
How do I reduce this urge, I am honestly fine with gooning more as it involves my own presence and doesn't keep me dependent on someone but i need something more healthy, would appreciate any tips or advice :(
Dms are open too but just be respectful please