She's going to a party in an hour with a friend and the purpose is to play erotic games and have sex.
I'm just rubbing on myself thinking that once again someone will be enjoying my wife.
I let her do what she wants but my rules are that she sends me a summary of details after each encounter.
Anyone else require something like that?
Also what do you guys do while shes away?
I’ve had cuckold fantasies since I was young. It was basically the only type of porn I watched for years. The idea of my wife being desired by other men turned me on mentally, but I always imagined it in a controlled fantasy setting where I still felt emotionally safe and wanted.
Over time, my wife and I had a very unstable relationship. A lot of fighting, jealousy, alcohol, trust issues, etc. I also struggled with insecurity and fear of abandonment more than I realized.
At one point, things crossed from “fantasy” into real life in a way I was absolutely not mentally prepared for. I got drunk one night and my wife ended up involved sexually with two other guys in front of me. At the time I was intoxicated and dissociated from what was happening. When I sobered up later, the reality of it hit me all at once.
What shocked me was how different fantasy vs reality felt psychologically.
Fantasy:
Reality:
The fallout afterward completely changed how I see myself, sex, and relationships. It forced me to confront the fact that I may have been using cuckold fantasies to explore feelings I didn’t actually know how to handle in real life.
Now I’m left wondering:
I’m trying to understand the psychology behind all this because honestly, it changed how I see myself and relationships entirely.