22 and been heavily addicted for nearly 9 years. This sucks.
Call me a pussy all you want, but yes, my mom gave me opiates when I was young. Codeine. Laugh at the noobie.
I'm engaged, been with my partner since I was 13, they were 14. I wasn't addicted then. It gets worse. Im smart, I know my way around anything, I can understand others deeply and myself more. I'll never get addicted, haha, it just makes me feel fuzzy. That was 60mg Codeine at the time. Now? Now I've almost died three times, and no one knows and it barely scares me. I laugh it off. Everyone close to me knows how deep I am, and yet they still dance around supplying to make me happy.
This week I've found that I feel worse on a higher dose than lower. Yet I crave more and more and more. Doses that'll kill adults I take easily. But it goes from a lovely warmth to a horrible exhaustion while I'm at work.
I need help.