u/Ashamed_Chemist_1603

Hey I am a 23 year old femboy and I thought I had this under control but I’m relapsing bad. Bambi Sleep files almost every night again, and I keep mixing it with stuff (weed, sometimes more) to go deeper. The triggers feel stronger than ever and it’s getting harder to snap out of it during the day. I catch myself spacing out, feeling all bubbly and empty-headed, craving to listen more and dress up longer.
I’m genuinely worried I’m actually losing control this time. Part of me loves it but the other part is scared I won’t be able to stop if it gets worse. Has anyone else been through this? How do you pull back before it takes over completely?