My husband and I want to have an experience together.
I am very proud of him for being open, and honest with me in his sexuality, I am supportive and want to explore with him. I don't want him to feel like he has to hide this, or he's alone, or has to sneak around to find the satisfaction he's seeking. I also don't want to be left out.. I know that's insecure.
Were both very sensory seeking, but I'm more sensory aversion than him. Like cum... I swallow it, but the rest grosses me out, I can totally act through it when I'm in the right mood lol
I've always enjoyed our sex life, tho it's hit its dry spells before, solely from me because he would go multiple times a day lol. He said it's become boring for him, I understand, I like the same positions.
I'm not quite ready for the real thing yet
(a threesome), so we're gonna get toys again to explore more.
I guess what I'm asking for guidance, I know I need to be in a better head space for this, (I'm a very jealous person). I do want this for me, as a woman. I also have so much anxiety revolving around this subject, I've expressed all of this to him and he's very reassuring. In the way of "we don't need to do this", not in a way like "it'll be okay", if that makes sense.
I want to evolve our sexual relationship; at night, but in the day my mind starts thinking about the bad things that could come from this. . Sex can be just that for him, but it's never been that way for me.
Any help from some ladies, or men, with this sort of emotional issue?