Dysphoria so incredibly bad
I don't even know what to do anymore I am in so much distress not knowing if I will ever be able to achieve something comfortable.
Ive got intouch with a surgeon who does gender affirming bottom surgeries, however he has said that he is not sure what can be done as it is a "designer surgery- and for some reason doesn't count under the gender affirming surgery umbrella???
I am so scared and I literally cannot describe the dread I feel everyday regarding this.
I'm afraid that I'm going to be stuck like this forever and I just can't do it.
It's genuinely getting to the point that I am seriously considering doing something myself, (as bad of an idea this is I actually can't live like this)
I have nowhere else to talk about this, it feels like everytime I find something it's a dead end, or the process is going in circles. (Not even to mention potential cost)
I cannot live like this
It's a fucking prison
some edits here,
-afab
-im in canada
-thank you for all the replies you are all so lovely <33