I find myself in an interesting spot. A little backstory. Me and my dom have been in a dynamic together for about 3 months now. It’s been really good and I’m really enjoying myself and his company. However he has a nesting partner but they are open. I wish I knew more about poly/open relationships. The only rule they have is he can’t love or use the word love but he can care about his submissive. Thats the part that gets tricky in my brain. I’m newer to this lifestyle but I also know that I don’t really want a romantic dynamic. I’ve never had a D/s romantic dynamic before and I don’t need it I also feel like you can care about someone but not in a romantic way.
He knows I fall easy and get attached easy - however I do realize that the chance of me falling in love with a dom and moving across the country is so unrealistic I know that but they are times where the line gets blurred. And it could very well seem like feelings because after all, I’m the most vulnerable with him than I ever been before and it’s scary. But it could be lust or a mind trick my body is playing on me. Of course I miss him when he’s not around but I manage my day to day and the time zone difference kinda works to our advantage.
Yesterday we had our third video call and the third one was no playing. We just sat and talked for an hour doing nothing sexual whatsoever. Also the way he looks at me while I’m talking makes me a nervous giggly wreck. I’ve seen the lust I’m his gaze before but sometimes I just like damn the way this man looks at mee…..
I don’t really find myself in feelings territory but I fear I might be close. Help. lol any words of encouragement or advice is wanted