Can’t stop thinking about ending my life
I know that probably sounds extreme but I’ve been an addict for about 10 years. MGM and 7oh is just the latest thing I’ve been addicted to but it helped me tremendously with getting off fentanyl. I had tried subs but I kept relapsing. After finding 7oh in 2024 I have barely even thought about heroin or fent. I moved and don’t know anyone to buy it from now. This ban is scaring the shit out of me. I’ve been taking like 700-1000mg of 7stax everyday for nearly a year. I have tried slowing down and quitting at times but I always fail. Coming off of this stuff feels more difficult than getting off heroin was or maybe that’s because it’s been a couple years.
I don’t know how to live without the help of drugs anymore. I’ve been doing it for so long now that I barely have anyone in my life. I haven’t been in a relationship in almost 10 years. I don’t know how to enjoy anything without getting high and I’m just miserable. My parents are dead and it feels like everyday I am just trying to get high enough to not want to jump out of a window. Idk I’m sorry for the rant I’m just scared honestly and don’t have anyone to talk to get this shit out. Im scared to talk to people in my life because they’ll want to put me in a mental hospital. I live just outside of Detroit and the mental institutions around here are fucking awful and feel more like jail.